LD, i wanted to tell u the whole story, when i told u i was n the accident, but it was too overwhelming in the moment i told u. so i don't want u 2 feel like i cheated u out of this great story, because i didn't. :-)
i know that Christmas is now past, but this story yet lingers on my shoulders. i just wanna put it out in this mystical realm, i think because i believe that others have had these types of wonderments.
i drove down to the city on Christmas Eve to celebrate with my family. we celebrated on the Eve because one of my sisters' had to work. i swear, i wish and hope that every soul @ the post holiday season was just as blessed and great as what my heart could barely contain.
here's the skinny, on Chrismas morning i was headed back home. it was snowing, wasn't sticking, didn't check the weather report, guess i was still a~bliss of great cheer. as i crossed the bridge over the river the snow seemed to be sticking, a few miles down the highway, traffic begin to thicken, as did the snow, then i tried to tune the radio on for traffic, wasn't about to happen, didn't get a thing but static. i had no idea the highway was closed up-ahead.
as i neared the option of getting off @ Cave Springs, my only out was either Mexico Rd, or the North Outter Rd, i chose Mexico Rd. i swear, it was like a slow motion silent movie. everyone appeared to be in no rush. even looking outside the car window, looked peaceful.
a particular peace and an overwhelming cup of happiness just coverd me completely. man, the peace and happiness was so amazing and so complete, that i asked GOD, "What is this peace i feel? Why is happiness overwhelming me? What are these emotions and just what is happening to me?" i began to chuckle. then i asked the big question, "GOD, are YOU getting ready to take me out of the world as i know it?" in my spirit, i heard these words, ~This is the true peace that surpasses all understanding~ This is the happiness that complete love feels~
as i continued my drive i realized that everyone had 3-5 car lengths between them. i called ahead to tell of the roads, let my home-girl know that um still on the highway, um going slow, but it appears that um gone be very late, as i told her about the roads and encouraged her not to worry we got off the phone.
there was a city snow plough about 5 car lengths ahead of me. i continued my conversation with GOD. all of a sudden i felt a huge thump on the hood of my car and you know i had to ask, "GOD, what was that??" as i could see the traffic light ahead, i began to gently touch my breaks, i was driving 10-15 mi. and the car began to slide, i made a choice not to wrestle with the car, instead, i said what Carrie Underwood sang about, ~Jesus Take The Wheel~ in the moment, i realized, i don't have control over anything! i wasn't afraid, i told GOD, "Um good GOD, if YOU want me now, i ain't got nothing left behind to do" again i chuckled.
i did not here nor see the car crash, but when my mind came to, i could hear voices, when i lifted my eyes, my car was lodged under-neath the plough truck. the windshield was broken out, my face was about an inch from the gas take of the plough truck. i was needless to say, speechless. emt's and officers, firemen, and others where asking, ~Or you ok, how do you feel, can you move?~
the next thing i knew when i came to, i was in the ICU, dez was standing right there asking, "ma, why is it that you always get chased by death near or on the holidays?" i laughed aloud, he was right, because every single threat of death that had ever happened in my life was just as he said. my bed was surrounded by visitors. i felt only love for them all. i felt so blessed. i felt what it really meant to be rich!
upon my release, my breast area wore the beautiful purple bruise of the seat belt. the air-bag never opened, i was told later that had it opened, the impact would have killed me. again, another chuckle from me. but here is the end, a couple of days later, dez, and O' went to the impound yard to get my personal belongings out of the car, and what they also brought me back, where feathers of a different sort, a white feather, like none i'd ever saw before, that sparkled, and a slight blood stain on it. dez, said it was where the windshield use to b.
now, i was and i am fine, got a real good shake up though, still at peace and still overwhelmed in happiness, and thanking GOD for letting me go another round in life. now i know that some don't believe in GOD, and trust me, i respect that, so this story is just for those that believe.
may GOD richly bless you's and give unto all, the true peace and overwhelming happiness that now dwells within my journey.