well my bankroll is back up in the thousands again.take a look at my avatar and my signature.believe it or not money has never meant much to me except as a means to get things done.i've always put it in the bank except for purposes where it was really needed.i'll be moving soon.getting another apartment but downstairs where my kids will be safer.my immediate family got to go shopping to get a few things like clothes,etc.so they are happy but they seem to think i might be greedy in a way because i have thousands on hand.i don't blow it and i put it back for hard times like i went through this fall and summer.i made it through with online winnings won in the spring.a long time ago i went through drink,drugs and women like a tornado through the plains.i had fun but it almost killed me and i learned my lessons.as far as drinking goes a few seizures put a stop to that.as far as drugs go overdose put a stop to that.as far as women go i was lied to and almost killed by a man i thought was her roommate but was husband.those days are over and life got a tad bit saner and boring but at least i found something to get excitement off of and thats gambling.its another thing i'm good at but it won't kill me like the others i've mentioned.i have learned self control and i always seem to put plenty of dollars in the pocket.i hit at lincoln on the greyhound trifecta for 2,600 the other night.i let that online gambling bill get in my craw for a while and lost some sleep and hair but i'm just about over it.i'm no longer pissed about the money i'm losing due to the gambling bill but just the governments insistence on babysitting me.where were they when i was killing myself with cigarettes,beer,liquor,etc?they were probably doing worse things but thats none of my business just like my business is none of theirs.sometimes you have to go through hell to see the forest through the trees.i see that now......finally.