Now I saw, though too late, the Folly of beginning a Work before we count the Cost, and before we judge rightly of our own Strength to go through with it.
From Robinson Crusoe
Could turn out that's the way things are. I don't know. I've always been a hard learner.
But the Predestination of Numbers thread on the Mystical Forum, particularly a post by Four4me, definitely has me pondering the question.