miss everyone here and just when it seems i'm about to be able to regularly post again something happens such as family emergencies,unemployment,or some other thing pops up to get in my way.my mother had a brain anuerysm last august and the doctor literally told us to get ready plus she was already in bad health.he said she had a five percent chance if she was lucky.well my whole family including my father and step mother prayed hard and she pulled through and made it and was out within a month.strange thing is my mother was never really religious but making it out of that alive really changed her and she reads the bible regularly.well a few months later i was laid off from a job i had for almost a decade.there was a few times in the past i was laid off for months but came back but this time is for good and i haven't worked all of 2009 so i have spent quality time with my kids.i've got a few goals.i went to start posting again and having fun here like i used to before i got overwhelmed with everything in life.i was dealt a few bad hands and a few good ones too but i'm learning to deal with adversity better.by the time november rolls around my oldest daughter will be five and it will also be five years since i started posting here.it will also be when arkansas starts its new lottery and i think i'm going to start playing there and i'm confident it will be ball drawn too.my goal is to be working by then and posting regular and hopefully everything will fall into place.hope everyone has been doing well.........