I have been glued to my television since the news broke yesterday about "The Gloved One's" passing. This sure has been hitting me hard, I just can't get my mind wrapped around it that he's gone. I was driving home yesterday and had the radio on and the station was playing one MJ song after another. Thought that was kind of strange and it gave me a weird vibe. The phone was ringing as I walked in the door, my cousin calling me to tell me the news. Wow........just.......wow. No words. 

Really haven't thought of him in years, haven't even heard much of his music. I remember sitting in my bedroom years ago with my old cassette player headphones on listening to "Man In The Mirror" over and over again for hours while attempting to write a novel. "Smooth Criminal" too, don't know why those 2 songs got me in the mood for writing. "Liberian  Girl" was another favorite. Geese, what album was that from? Bad, I think. Before that,it was "Off The Wall". Well, don't want to get started down memory lane because his catalog of songs just goes on and on, doesn't it? I'm sure I can attach a memory to each one. Growing up in the 80's you just had to be influenced by MJ somehow, somewhere. He was all over the place. 

Watching the television coverage has been eye opening. I never watch news and now I know why. The anchors are just......horrible, what can you say? Repeating the same things over and over because at this point nobody knows anything until the Toxology tests come out in a month or so from now. The one REALLY strange thing is the lack of "sadness". I haven't seen one person yet shedding a tear. Maybe there was but everything I've seen has been dull and kind of cold. And here is a person who was suffering right before the whole world and nobody "saw" this man in the mirror. Well, they saw, they just never "said"......anything. Or tried to help this man-child. Or did they? It seems nobody knows anything. But I'm sure coming soon to a bookstore near you will be tell-all after tell-all books.  

People sure didn't waste anytime putting MJ memorabelia up for sale on ebay. I checked this morning and there were 17,000 items for sale. By evening, it was up to 36,000. I find this very sad. If you were such a fan why would you be selling your memories? I've still got my MJ albums and wouldn't part with them for a few bucks. Oh, but wait, "Thriller" albums were selling for $300 bucks! More than a "few". I even saw the Picture LP Disc of Thriller going for $1500. My grandma gave me one of those for Christmas and I never even opened it. But, again, I wouldn't sell it....too many memories.

What a day! A day we probably won't ever see again, two icons gone within hours of each other. Poor Miss Fawcett's passing got pushed to the side but I suppose she already had her "moment" with the documentary. A very sad day indeed. Not to mention another "icon" of sorts, Ed McMahon.

Something's stirred up in the universe, I feel uneasy. Like when 9/11 happened and Katrina. These "big events" always make me feel like there's some kind of message being sent. But what is it? Maybe it just makes you think of your own mortality.

I guess that's why this bothers me so......I feel as if a part of my childhood has died. And way before I was ready.

                               RIP Michael, Farrah, Ed........you will all be missed.