It feels easier to give up than to keep going...someone said in my other blog entry...as long as I have my health I will be ok...I don't have my health...another reason why I need a miracle...I have surgeries that need to be done. My life is a nightmare. I just want to feel good and be happy...I don't know why this is too much to ask for.

I think about my hopes & dreams...I don't want to give up...but it is hard.