i've dropped into something of a rut these days.feel like my luster is gone.feel weathered and beat.the last few months besides being on a losing streak i've also suffered a problem with my confidence too.having two babies within a year period and help raising them is hard and i'm trying to get used to it.i'm not exercising at all,not eating right and i have a real bad caffeine habit.i wrote a while back about how much i love sodas.got to where my sleeping habits are out of wack.i wake up going to the bathroom all day.what in the world has happened to me,lol.i feel like i need to do something to lift myself out of this hole.i keep telling myself i'm going to change but i don't.been this way for a few months now.i need to get in a positive frame of mind in the worst way.i really do need to lift myself up out of this hole and get back to being me.somewhere along the way i lost myself...........