I realy don't know where to start from, reading this takes me back to when i was with my husband and i have to say this, what happen to you could happen to anyone, the part of this that touch me the most is what your husband did and said. Let me tell you, no one and i mean no one should have to live with someone that mean.
If someone can't have sympathy and feeling for you while your down and need help i can't start to imagine what you go through on a daily base. I don't think i had it that bad with my husband but i went through a whole lot with him and after 18 yrs i left because my happiness mattered. At some point in your life you have to tell your self that.
These things only comes to make us strong, we feel like we can't make it on our own but with God's help we can do anything. When i pray, most of the time am in the shower i don't care how long i let the water run because he helps me pay the bills and i ask God to clense me of all unpurity and clense me of any evil thoughs before i talk to him i don't add anything i go to him just as i am and take all my needs to him and i've been on my own for 6yrs now.
I strongly believe everyone should be happy and you can also. Try and get some counselling because i feel you need it and pray like i do and believe it and it will get better for you.
I can't start to tell you how sad hearing this made me, because i was once in your shoe.
Get well soon and i will be praying for you.