I need something explained to me based on "visualization" and the "law of attraction"..Can negativity still exist in visualization and the positive event still occur?
I mainly think in analytical ways, but I do know of some things that have occurred in my life that I had no control over, but through some kind of visualization, they came true.
Here they are:
1.) I did really well in high school, but struggled quite a bit in college where I was either going to quit or be thrown out. I studied hard, but no matter, it never seemed enough. In front of me was the reality of failure, somewhere in my mind there was no option to fail, even though it everything I did seemed to go wrong. I developed a severe case of test anxiety. One day something clicked and I started to do well and made Dean's List. I did well enough that I ended up going to Grad school, finishing my coursework in 2 semesters (4 hours of sleep a night). I went from almost flunking out to Grad school. Oddly, I never took for granted that I would always be successful....so there was still some "negativity"
2.)I was in a job that I hated 12 years ago. It was stressful but I could not quit (I worked there from 1996 to 1999)....I simply don't quit something. I sent out resumes every week, went to my miserable job. It was truly depressing. Visually, my family could see that I was miserable, and waking up was difficult to do. My family would always say that "you'll never get even close to what you want because you think negative." I would counter that I had to be realistic and not get my hopes up so much that I come crashing down. MY job was so bad that Fridays I was happy, but by Sunday night, I felt like total garbage. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I kept thinking that things would get better. I just did not know how. Eventually, I was called about a job in November of 1998 and began an interview process that went into January (the company was making sure that the budget was finalized for the new year). ALthough I felt good about my interviews, I reasoned that until I signed on the dotted line, I should not get my hopes up. January 8, 1999 I was let go at my old job. I felt relief, but the new job still wasn't mine yet, so I still felt unsettled. As if that weren't enough, my car was acting up (major electrical problems). Needless to say, I drove through a Noreaster on Saturday to be at what I was hoping my last interview in my truck (which broke down after I got home). I did get the job and a dramatic increase in pay that enabled me to get a newer car and by a house later that year.
3.)For many years, I always felt that I would have 3 boys. Two that would be less than 2 years apart and a third a couple of years later than that. You can't control the gender of your kids although you do have a 50-50 shot at one or the other. For a while, it seemed like it would never happen when everyone around us was having kids.
4.) The dream job that I once had started to go south a few years back. New management came in and it started to go down hill. There were "shifty" things that were going on. My clients were getting uneasy about the accountability. I stayed close to the clients and tried to distance myself from management, even though it might have cost me my job. I felt like I was on the firing line. Because I stayed close to the client, my "allegience" to the company was questioned.....I alway felt that it was the client who ultimately paid the bills. Despite the sick feeling I had when I went to work, I put on the brave face, did my job, feeling that something was going to get better, not knowing how or when. Knowing the uphill battle, I had my doubts all the time, but deep down I knew that something positive would happen. On the outside, my family saw negativity, and I felt it because I was a realist. Eventually the new job and better pay did happen. I really did not have any control over getting the new job. Alot of other things were going on in my life that weren't so great and it had dampened the effect of the new job so that I really can't take it for granted.
For a long time(even before all of the events listed above), I felt that I was going to hit it big in the lottery. It is something there, I have always felt it but can't explain it. Right now would be the best time as any...(too long to explain). As a realist, I know the odds of having all the right numbers. Because of this, I am a little gun shy about spending even a dollar for a chance to win (yeah, I know, what's a dollar?). On the surface, I feel like it is an impossibility more than just a long shot, but something is telling me that it will happen. Last August, I had a free ticket, played a 5/43 game whose jackpot was $850,000. I hit 4 out of 5 numbers, winning $300. When I saw that I had 4 of 5, I was calm, very calm....and grateful. I didn't feel that was my "turn" because my thought about the "big one" is that I would win in a state that would allow me to claim anonymously. I have visualized the actual drive to claim as well as the building. It would be an upper mid-range jackpot in Mega or Powerball meaning that it would not be a recordbreaker, but it would not be the lowest "reset" amount after a win. The winning would come at a time when it would be most needed.
I have seen all of this "talk" about visualization not having any negative thoughts associated with it. I have had many positive things happen in my life, but I am rooted in reality and reality can be negative. My family always says that I am a pessimist and negative. I tend to think that I am a realist and that negativity is part of the reality. Can anybody share some positive visualization where the odds were stacked and alot of negative "forces"(for lack of a better term) existed all around?
As somebody that is more analytical, I see lotteries as a game of chance with odds against any player, but I do see where other things happen that better somebody's situation....even with improbable odds.