I'm pleased to see you realize taking your life is satan"'s goal. He'd like nothing more
than for us to turn our backs on God by committing suicide, leaving this earth to join
him in hell and leave nothing but anguish, suffering and heartache on those that are left
behind to wonder why, wonder what they could have done and suffer the rest of their lives
missing you. It's an awful lesson to teach a young or confused mind that ending a life is
an option to escape temporary hardship, sorrow and disdain.
Everyone has problems at one time or another, some pull through, some never resolve them
and are just accepting of the fact that's what God had in mind for them. Some change their life
dramatically for the better and still some see extreme highs followed by extreme lows.
Things constantly change. Please don't make the worst kind of change you can think of right
now to escape the hurt. You are needed by someone in this life, that's why you were put here.
Right now it may seem hopeless and you may feel helpless but know this...you count.
You count for your child if no one else. You may even be in God's plan for someone else in the
same situation as you right now. We all count it's just hard to see it until it happens sometimes.
And if it never happens, God knows why. Whatever that why is, it's a special why.
Many times it seems like He's not listening but he is. What you're going through is a test right now.
Please don't let the wrong side win.
There is help.
Suicide hotlines.
Salvation Army.
A local church.
If needed, abuse hotlines. Sorry trying to read between lines.
Don't be proud. Don't be afraid.
Let tomorrow take care of itself, it's not here yet.
You made the right choice to reach out. I don't think anyone could resent your post and
if they do they are cold and hard and need help themselves.
Reach further. Reach deep down and find the drive and motivation to carry on.
Trying times end or let up. You will be happy some day, just make sure you are here to see
and enjoy it.
My prayers to you.
Soon your son will start school...that frees up time for you to aid financially, if possible.
Don't worry about the designer things and fitting in, kids like school whether they wear Starter
or Nike. Be there to hear what fun he had each day. If you have not much more, you'll have
memories. That's priceless.
This will pass.
Believe it.