tonbeck30, i will give you the best and most reasonable advice that anyone can give you on this subject. first of all, don't act desperate. desperation makes us do things that we would not normally do. it "clouds" our judgement. play only the amount of money that you can afford to lose. don't take this so serious. winning the lottery is not the answer to life. having money is important and may be even more important for someone who needs it badly. but it still is not a good enough reason to act desperate.
but you must reach a place in your life that you will have peace whether you have a dime to your name or you have so much money you couldn't spend it all. money makes a poor barometer at the end of a mans life as to the degree of his success.
in closing there are two points i wish to make to you.
1) play for fun !!
2) and most important is the undersatnding that "if you are meant to, you will. if you are not, you won't". some are mean't to and some are not. if you begin to understand that, you will be at more peace on this issue.
hope this helps, ...........................visiondude