no more beating around the bush. no more ( alot of) dropped hints. i have been in here for a little over a year and i have been waiting for someone to ask the right question that would open the door. so without further adieu i will give credit where credit is due. annuityisgreat is the impetus for this disclosure. he is the one that God had picked to open the door (thanks annuity). a couple of people had come close. sedertree during our challenge asked me "when the time comes will you prove your "theory". he never went any further. davidT from compulotto in his first two posts almost got it out of me by asking "what are you doing in here" (lol). his third post closed that door. the artist formerly known as "lottowiz" came very close but didn't quite ask the right question.
in short....I AM "MEANT TO"
the explantion ; i have known about it and have been prepared for it for 7+ years. i know that it is within the plan of God for my life. i know it because over many years i have built a relationship with him that allows me to know things that he wants to do in my life before he does it. it has happened before on several occasions and on each of those occasions, i was right (that i knew that it was God and NOT my emotions). it hasn't happened alot, just when he wants something from my life so i can adjust to it and prepare for it before it happens. nothing more complicated than that.
disclaimer: i do not believe in the "power" of positive thinking as a means to strong arm God for what a person wants. i do not believe in "positive confessions" of "faith". that if we somehow wear down God with our "faith", that he has to give us what we ask for. you can pray and ask till you are blue in the face and if you are not "meant to"......you won't. i do not believe that God owes us a "nice little life" no matter how obedient we are. i do believe that we are to serve him no matter what. i have come to realize a good many years ago that God has a plan for my life. and i have stuck to that plan despite the fact that my life has been hard the last 12 years (especially the last "2"). all i do is make myself available to find out what that plan is then when he shows me whether it is perceived by me as being good, bad or ugly, i adjust to it. this statement of mine that i will win someday is born out of that relationship. it is not derived from a fantasy or an emotional "need". i know it because in some form or another, it has been God that has both shown me and prepared me for it for the last 7+ years. it does not come from wishful thinking. i am publically declaring it so that all can see why i am in here and what will happen to me before it happens. people will have something to think about both before and after. hopefully they will "adjust" as well.
i told todd not too long after joining LP so he has known for awhile. the others before this post where thomas covenant, sandyK, luckycat and KB cherokee.
if you have been in here anytime at all you know me as the "prove it guy" (lol). i have insisted that people who make big claims that they should back it up. well now it's my turn to live up to my own standards. i have opened up most of my personal life to criticism and i don't regret ever doing so. i did it on purpose. i want people to be able to point to me and say "that guy knows God". not for self aggrandizing reasons, but so that they can see that a relationship with God is possible for them. in order to do that i must fully reveal who i am even to the point of ridicule. i love it that people have certain perceptions about me as that plays right into my hands. if what is going to happen to me as i have stated it will ONLY happen because i have kept my "stuff" straight before God all along. that i have been faithful to the vision and not detoured despite circumstancial setbacks and criticism from people.
the reason why or "me"; it is not because God loves or favors me above anyone else. read that again because this "thing" is not about me, as it is about God. there are plenty of people that are in more need or that have been more obedient than me. so it is not about me. it is about God "choosing" me for two reasons. (1) that HE will get the attention of "some". (2) as a tool that he will use to bless others. i am only a steward. God uses many "different" tools in our lives for the above two purposes. the lottery just happens to be "one" of the many tools that he has used in my life. it is no more complicated than that. before you think that winning the lottery is somewhere near the pinnacle of life, think again. money or the amount thereof makes a poor barometer of "who" a man or woman really is. i will be the same man "character wise" as i was during all those years i struggled financially. my wallet might be fatter, but my foundation will stay the same size.
so there it is. i have stuck my neck and all of my reputation on the line. when i first came to LP i had no intention on posting. i just wanted to glean info for my destiny. but then someone was making claims that you could pray some special "prayer" and that God was obligated to let them win the lottery. i could not sit there and let someone mis-represent God that way. they were giving people false hope and i hate that. isn't it ironic that i am now claiming that it is God who has told me that one day that i will win? that either makes me the absolute biggest fool in here because if i am mis-representing God to all of you, i am in BIG TROUBLE. (or i really do "know" God). <<<<<<<<<<<time will tell...
lastly. that is the reason i have never made any pre-lottery promises. he has never told me how much or what he expects me to do with it yet. that will only happen after (the "jack whittaker" poll was a joke). i don't know you so please don't ask. also please do not make any "suggestions". God for some reason has decided to en-trust it to me. that means that he will tell me first what he wants me to do with it, those instructions will NOT come from someone else.
now that my neck is fully on the chopping block, please feel free to fire away. good, bad or.................ugly.
"for the VISION is yet for an appointed time. though it tarry, wait for it, for it will surely come" habbukuk 2 : 3
thistimejustplainoldvision(sortof)