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He agreed to send $35 million in aid for the victims of the Tsunami.

Tsunami Death Toll Soars Past 55,000

BANDA ACEH, Indonesia - Desperate refugees foraged for coconuts or looted food on battered Sumatra island Tuesday, as the number killed in a mammoth earthquake and tsunami soared above 55,000 and tens of thousands still were missing. Grieving survivors buried their dead by hand, trying to ward off an epidemic that the U.N. health agency warned could double the toll yet again.

Across a dozen countries, millions of people whose homes were swept away or wrecked by raging walls of water Sunday struggled to find shelter.

"My mother, no word! My sisters, brothers, aunt, uncle, grandmother, no word!" yelled a woman at a makeshift morgue in Lhokseumawe, Indonesia. "Where are they? Where are they? I don't know where to start looking."

Along India's southeastern coast, hospital teams stood by to help the injured, but three days after the disaster still spent most of their time tabulating the dead as ambulances hauled in more bodies. A French cultural center in Thailand's capital provided clothes and food for tourist families left with nothing when the sea battered southern beach resorts.

One of the most dramatic illustrations of nature's force came to light Tuesday when reporters reached the scene of a Sri Lankan train carrying beachgoers that was swept into a marsh by a wall of water Sunday, killing at least 802. Eight rust-colored cars lay in deep pools of water in a ravaged palm grove, torn off wheels and baggage scattered among the twisted rails.

"Is this the fate that we had planned for? My darling, you were the only hope for me," a young man cried for one of the train victims - his university sweetheart - as Buddhist monks prayed nearby.

Indonesia's Health Ministry said in a statement that thousands more bodies were found Tuesday, raising to more than 27,000 the number of confirmed deaths in parts of Sumatra island, the territory closest to the epicenter of the quake that sent tsunami waves rolling across the Indian Ocean. The count did not include a report of 10,000 more dead in the region around one coastal city.

Sri Lanka listed 21,700 people dead, India 4,400 and Thailand 1,500, with the toll expected to rise. A total of more than 300 were killed in Malaysia, Myanmar, Bangladesh, the Maldives, Somalia, Tanzania, Seychelles and Kenya.

Officials had not yet counted the dead in two zones that suffered the brunt of both the earthquake and the tsunami that followed: the west coast of Sumatra and India's remote Andaman and Nicobar archipelagos just north of Sumatra.

Purnomo Sidik, national disaster director at Indonesia's Social Affairs Ministry, said 10,000 people had been reported killed in and around Meulaboh, a poor Sumatran town where most people are fishermen or workers on palm oil plantations. In India, police said 8,000 people were missing and feared dead on the two island chains.

Television footage from overflights of Meulaboh and other parts of Sumatra's west coast showed thousands of homes underwater. Refugees fleeing the coast described surviving on little more than coconuts before reaching Banda Aceh, the capital of Aceh province on Sumatra's northern tip, which itself was largely flattened by the quake.

"The sea was full of bodies," said one refugee, Sukardi Kasdi, who sailed a small boat to Banda Aceh to seek help for his family in Surang.

He said his family had nothing to eat but coconuts. "I don't know how long everyone else will survive," he said.

With aid not arriving quick enough, desperate people in Meulaboh and other towns in Aceh were stealing whatever food they could find, officials said.

"People are looting, but not because they are evil, but they are hungry," said Red Cross official Irman Rachmat in Banda Aceh.

The flooding uprooted land mines in Sri Lanka - torn for years by a civil war - threatening to kill or maim aid workers and survivors attempting to return to what's left of their homes.

Aid groups struggled to mount what they described as the largest relief operation the world has ever seen, and to head off the threat of cholera and malaria epidemics that could break out where water supplies are polluted with bodies and debris.

Dr. David Nabarro, head of crisis operations for the World Health Organization ( face=Arial color=#0000ff news - face=Arial color=#0000ff web sites), warned that disease could take as many lives as Sunday's devastation.

"The initial terror associated with the tsunamis and the earthquake itself may be dwarfed by the longer term suffering of the affected communities," he told reporters at the U.N. agency's offices in Geneva.

A government official in India said Sunday's devastation had overwhelmed authorities, who were only now getting relief operations under control and starting to address health concerns.

"It was all sudden and unexpected. There were just too many bodies to recover," Veera Shanmuga Moni said. "Now that we are close to finishing that job, we will now take care of sanitation and supply of clean water."

The United States, Japan, Australia and other nations pledged millions of dollars to help the relief effort, and some sent military transport planes and helicopters to carry medical teams and emergency supplies.

In southern Thailand's Phang Nga province, where resorts had been packed with thousands of tourists from Europe and elsewhere when the tsunami hit, soldiers and volunteers were still finding bodies lying bloated and rotting in the tropical sun.

Survivors lined up at airports to leave the country, many without relatives or lovers they had come with.

"I saw many kids perish. I saw parents trying to hold them but it was impossible. It was hell," said Karl Kalteka of Munich, Germany, who lost his girlfriend in the torrent.

Amid the devastation, however, there were miraculous stories of survival. In Malaysia, a 20-day-old baby was found alive on a floating mattress and was reunited with her family.

In Thailand, 2-year-old Hannes Bergstroem, who was found dazed and alone after the waves hit, was claimed by an uncle after his photograph was posted on the Internet.

The Swedish newspaper Aftonbladet reported that the boy's mother and grandmother were missing, but later media reports said he was reunited with his grandmother. His father and grandfather were believed to be in another hospital in Thailand, but their exact location and conditions were not immediately known.

A U.N. agency has said that one-third of the disaster's victims were children.

EVERYONE OUR PRAYERS NEED TO GO TO THESE PEOPLE. TELL ALL THE ONES YOU LOVE HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM. THINGS LIKE THIS CAN HAPPEN TO ANYONE AT ANY TIME. LIFE IS SHORT, SHARE IT WITH THE ONES YOU LOVE.

Life isnt fair

 

Out grown like the dreams I'm chasing

And girls I've spent so long erasing

This world kills with no remorse

Break up its cheaper than a divorce

 

You'll have to learn

Life isn't fair

Give up in everything

But most importantly

Everyone

 

The hero in us all

Hides till were brave enough

To finally kill ourselves

Or worse...fall in love

The hero in myself

Is only make believe

God help us send a cure

For this air we all breathe

 

These words generic as the lips that speak

Controlling is so easy to be

Drugs keep this world so real

We're dying faster then we feel

 

You'll have to learn

Life isn't fair

Give up in everything

But most importantly

Everyone

 

The hero in us all

Hides till were brave enough

To finally kill ourselves

Or worse...fall in love

The hero in myself

Is only make believe

God help me send a cure

For this air we all breathe

 

And if you think I am so terrible

Do us both a favor and kill me

And if my views are so wrong

Please feel free to **** off

And go to hell with me

 

Take one last look leave me helpless

Pretend that you couldn't help this

This is goodbye this is the end

Sink my ship and frame the captain

Life has taught me one last lesson

You will always end up less than

You had sacrificed and hoped for

Forever is six feet under...

Where is the heaven you've hoped for?

Forever is six feet under

In the end we get what we deserve

A wooden box below the dirt

Where is the heaven you've hoped for?

Forever is six feet under

In the end we get what we deserve

A wooden box below the dirt

I want to believe

I've made and make mistakes

That cost me everything
Everyday is a chance

To change the way we think

And live, and possibly our fate

"Oh well...I tried, anyway"

 

And I don't want to wait

For everyone to come around

And I don't agree with anyone

But I don't want to spend
A hundred years alone

 

Please don't break my heart

I've run out of lines

Describing tragedies

That seem to happen all the time

It's hard to grasp

I'm so close to tears

Writing the same song

For almost three years..

 

And I don't want to wait

For this whole world to come around

And I don't believe in anything

But I don't want to die

Living like I am

And I don't want to wait

For everyone to come around

And I don't agree with anyone

But I don't want to spend
A hundred years alone.again

I just wanted to say that you all know my views are very strong against certain issues and such.

But there are alot of people on this forum, with views i may not agree with, but i still think are totally awesome people. So please, when you read my posts, dont think i am trying to offend you, were just helping eachother TRY (LOL) to win the lottery. Maybe a few people will see things the way i do, maybe not, my views wont change, and odds are, yours wont either, so lets just gamble. lol

Much love

Justin

In the post where my post was deleted, i must not have read tj26's full thread because i didnt see any personal attack, and if there was i did not mean to condone it, i am expressing my views as i believe they are realistic, i dont expect everyone to follow them, or even agree. And i wont attack others, sorry if you thought i did

Justin

I already posted this but few people will probably see it, therefore here is a perfect example of explaining my views

Okay so lets pretend i get innormed that a man who always wears a red sweater is going to try to kill your family but i dont do anything about it. In about a week your family is murdered. Afterwards i look for the man for about a month, then i decide that this guy in a blue sweater who looks kinda bad is far more dangerous......so i beat the crap out of him....then all his family, friends, infact, i beat up anyone else wearing blue sweaters........AM I YOUR HERO?

Last time i checked Saddam was hiding in a hole.....real threat....

Yesterday was probably the first day in years i havent drank a soda

This probably doesnt seem like a big deal to anyone else but i usually have about 4-10 cans worth of mountain dew/coca cola a day. No soda did seem to minorly cut down the pain.......but a mcdonalds breakfast brought it back :(

Im trying to quit, it really is hard though

Keep on the 760 everyone i predicted that along time ago, and now is its time, 3 straight hits this week and its not done.

As you all probably have seen in my blogs i write music, i also play guitar, bass, and am learning the keyboard when im around one. i sing my own melodies to my own music and it has been my life for about 3 1/2 years. i have always wondered why i could not extend my vocal range. i mean its really thin, with acoustical stuff i cant get any high notes in there without screetching and i cant sing any notes held out long at all, in fact my singing is pushed out so hard to make it sound good i turn red. you also have probably seen ive been diagnosed with acid reflux, but it seems much more is going on. recently i have stumbled upon an article on acid reflux over the internet saying how the acid goes up your esophagus and eats you (larynx??!?) i think thats it. anyways it basically kills your range and even your ability to sing at times (ashlee simpson) this is killing me, why couldnt i have some other thing? ive been held back from my true ability three years, and not only that since ive been forced singing ive been killing my voice, i went to the doctor twice about throat problems and pains, and he never suggested this, i hate, hate, hate my doctors.........so basically my stomach hurts, my heart has sharp pains all the time, and now even when i do find the energy to pick up my guitar, i have to sit there knowing the reason i cant hit those high notes is because of something i could have treated long long ago...............

As youve noticed ive been doing small amounts of posting as i couldnt sleep the last couple days due to these heart pains, i dont even know what to do anymore. also upon going to the store i find out our towns supplier has apparently run out of prilosec OTC.............

I cant post for a while everyone, i am in so much stomach pain from my acid reflux or ulcer or whatever this is i cant take it anymore....my nexium isnt working well at all.....im sorry i dont have time to post but ill try to come back when im feeling better, good luck to all of you

justin

This is a really amazing and smart thriller.

I would recommend it

Granted, no movie is perfect

But the plot holes are quite small.

And the ending is unpredictable, i promise

#3 Falling

Cut the skin just to bleed

Watch life drip out of me

Caught you off guard this time

Can you hear me now?

Healing words, they aren't there

And I don't really care

I submit to what brought me down

 This life it makes me insane

Cut myself just to stop the pain

I'd rather die then stay here one more day

This time it wasn't your to waste

Priorities well their misplaced

Tomorrow is way too long to wait

Watch myself start to fall

I feel nothing at all

Whats left of me has already given up

My last shot will not miss

I'm so useless in this

I hope this message is clear enough

 Is it really better now I'm gone

It sucks to know that you were wrong

I guess its not all my fault after all

And when you get this note

It's all I have to show

You taught me how to walk, but I learned how to fall

 (I'm dying)

As long as you don't pull the trigger

This isn't your fault..right?

 This life it makes me insane

Cut myself just to stop the pain

I'd rather die then stay here one more day

This time it wasn't your to waste

Priorities well their misplaced

Tomorrow is way too long to wait

Is it really better now I'm gone

It sucks to know that you were wrong

I guess its not all my fault after all

And when you get this note

It's all I have to show

You taught me how to walk, but I learned how to fall

As long as you don't pull the trigger this is not your fault

As long as you don't pull the trigger this is not your fault

As long as you don't pull the trigger this is not your fault

As long as you don't pull the trigger this is not your fault

#4 Alone and Always

This could be the first night I spend alone by choice (I'm happy without you)

But you know I'm not that strong (I'm happy without you)

So kiss me one last time lets make it worth it (Doesn't this hurt?)

Because honestly, sweetheart (I hope this hurts)

You were never worth it

 

You told me you wouldn't leave bruises
You wouldn't leave a scar

But my hearts bluer than

The sea of lies you drowned me in and

You told me you'd love me forever

Well I wasn't aware forever

Fell short of a month

 

This could be the first night I spend alone by choice (I'm happy without you)

But you know I'm not that strong (I'm happy without you)

So kiss me one last time lets make it worth it (Doesn't this hurt?)

Because honestly, sweetheart (I hope this hurts)

You were never worth it

 

Did you believe all the things I said

I believed I meant

I cant believe all the sympathy you got from this

I hate you more than I wish

That you do not exist

I cant forgive you
But im trying to forget

 

This could be the first night I spend alone by choice (I'm happy without you)

But you know I'm not that strong (I'm happy without you)

So kiss me one last time lets make it worth it (Doesn't this hurt?)

Because honestly, sweetheart (I hope this hurts)

You were never worth it

 

This is me

Cross my heart and hope to die

You cant start over

If you cant leave the past behind

This is you

With intentions so cruel you cant speak

Did this mean anything?

Because these tears mean something to me

 

This could be the first night I spend alone by choice (I'm happy without you)

But you know I'm not that strong (I'm happy without you)

So kiss me one last time lets make it worth it (Doesn't this hurt?)

Because honestly, sweetheart (I hope this hurts)

You were never worth it

 

#5 A "Real" Love Song

 

He turned the keys, his first mistake

Looked at her, laughing, and put his foot on the brake

He whispered something that she whispered back

Gave her a kiss and it would be their last

Tired from pleasure, ready to sleep

They pulled on the shoulder, he pulled out the keys

Shut off the headlights, opened the door

Already raining, it started to pour

Already raining, it started to pour

 

Promises aren't as strong as pavement

And it shows, this life is

So much less than we've been told

 

He opened her door, and let her out

Placed his hand on hers, and said aloud

"I love you so much" I truly swear

Got down on one knee, she was unprepared

For what would come next, the silence broke

A loud explosion, he starts to choke

Blood pours like raindrops, right down his throat

His left hand opens, out drops a note

Already raining it started to pour

 

Promises aren't as strong as pavement

And it shows, this life is

So much less than we've been told

 

Her shock is broken, she starts to scream

Although he's right there, she wont let herself see

"What the hell happened", she starts to think

No longer herself, she grabs his keys

She finds a red tool, pulls out the blade

Looks at her lover, and takes her life away

A newest member, enters a gang

The details change but the story stays the same

Already raining it started to pour

 

Promises arent as strong as pavement

And it shows, this life is

So much less than we've been told

 

Just think back to when

We couldn't speak in sentences

Or make sense, these times were the very best

And we cant deal with all this stuff

The sex and drugs, it all caught up

We snapped our best friend's necks

The second that they turned their backs

 

Just think you could slit my throat

I can't afford to go to the hospital

My heart has been an invitation

For anyone to come and incinerate it

And I believe life is about

Finding the person you cant live without

And showing them how much you care

Every day of every month of every year

 

We all grew up on TV's dreams

Of plastic smiles sewn with corporate seams

Eighteen years of schooling for

A senseless death in a stupid war

Our dreams are lost all hope is gone

The things we wish for all are wrong

Your coffin may cost more than mine

But I promise you will still rot inside

 

I had a hundred years and now eighteen are gone

I've made decisions that I can now see are wrong

I've kissed my share of girls and had too many fights

You are the one I dream of every single night

I had a hundred years and now eighteen are gone

I've made decisions that I can now see are wrong

I've kissed my share of girls and had too many fights

You are the one I dream of every single night

 

 

Well i thought id put some songs on here and let people read/review them

We're so dramatic

Lets stop this we've had it

This fighting is killing me

It's killing me

And here I am (here I am)

Armed with an apology

This one's worth hearing

 

Forever means forever

And if we die then its together

Nothing else even matters

As long as we end up together

And if you feel us fading

Lock me tight inside my car

And drive it off a bridge

And your lipstick through my heart

 

This is so tragic

Your crying, our manic

Behavior is killing me

It's killing me

And promise me (promise me)

You wont write our eulogy

I'd never read it

 

Forever means forever

And if we die then it's together

Nothing else even matters

As long as we end up together

And if you feel us fading

Lock me tight inside my car

And drive it off a bridge

And your lipstick through my heart

 

Every minute that we waste

Fighting is in bad taste

I want to share with you

Everything I ever do

And if there is a heaven

I pray that we both get in

So we can be together

Just like this but.......

 

Forever means forever

And if we die then it's together

Nothing else even matters

As long as we end up together

And if you feel us fading

Lock me tight inside my car

And drive it off a bridge

And your lipstick through my heart

 

 

Thats my first one, any comments?

Thanks, justin