Lately, things haven't been going my way. I graduated from college in December 2012 and have spent this entire year looking for full-time employment. Finally got an opportunity to begin training at a company for a full-time position at the beginning of December of this year. I have been playing jackpot lottery games for 6 years now and have won no more than $5 on Powerball/ Mega Millions at most 5 or 6 times in all that time. I put some effort into developing strategies that never work, and have given up on strategies and simply play QP to no avail. I mostly play inconsistenly as I cannot afford even to play up to $5 a week consistently so I only play Florida Lotto over $25m, Powerball over $100m, and Mega Millions over $120m. I have been receiving financial assistance from my parents to help pay for my rent and my food for the past 6 months. This economy is tough to find good work, even with a college degree. I look at the lottery as a small chance, a glimmer of a possibility of once and for all, winning and fulfilling my dreams. I don't depend on the lottery (as I have said I have been seeking employment and playing very little) but I do HOPE that one day the prize can be mine. However, lately, I know the odds are astronomical but someone out there is that one who beats the odds and wins every few weeks. Someone who believed the odds to be too large to win, actually wins. I just want that to be me. But as I go to purchase my ticket for the Florida Lotto and Mega Millions on Tuesday, I will be purchasing them realizing my better odds of picking a perfect NCAA bracket, dating a supermodel, becoming a pro athlete, or winning an academy award. I feel down and defeated. I will continue to purchase tickets when they meet my criteria of play but just can't bring myself to imagine the feeling I picture of winning, to actually become a reality.
...but actually probably never.