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Heavenletter #2231 Published on: January 3, 2007

Sometimes great joy brings you great tears. Don’t mind tears. Welcome them. Sometimes your heart is so full and you are so unaccustomed to such fullness, that tears leak out the way ballast is thrown over to balance a boat. It is no crime to weep from joy. It is no crime to weep for any reason or no reason.

Honor tears. They have a merit. They are not something you are supposed to keep down. Let tears come to your heart’s content. Tears let you know that you are not made from stone. Tears signal that you are a vibrant live person who has feelings and sometimes feelings beyond the known. Tears will tell. Count on the tenderness of tears.

Sometimes you cry, and you know not why. Know that your feelings are shedding their skin, as it were. Be glad. Be glad you can cry. It would indeed be something to cry over if you could not cry. That would be occasion for sadness. Be glad for tears. Honor their presence. Bemoan their disappearance.

Unless you can cry from the depth of yourself, how can you laugh from the depth of yourself? I do not mean a titter. I mean laughter that shakes your whole body and means something to you. I mean laughter refreshing like tears.

Tears and laughter come from the same place. Something surprised you, something unexpected. How akin are laughter and tears.

When you are in love and cry because your beloved is so sweet, you cry because you do not know that you are capable of giving equal sweetness as that poured on you. And you do not know that the sweetness will last. So much you have bargained on has not. You would like guarantees when love itself is its own guarantee. Love is here this moment. That is all you can know, beloveds. You can, of course, ask that love continue and that love continue to grow, and yet you fear that loving can only bring heartache one way or another by and by.

Let it then. Let love bring what it will. Invest in love, and never mind the return. Invest in love, and never mind its course. Be glad for love. Be glad for the moments of love. The moments of love are the merit of life. They are the merit of your life. Let the trowel of love build a high tower. It is the building of it that matters. If it topples later, no matter. You are building a tower to reach the sky now.

The lesson in life is that there is no end to love. Whether in life or in death, love has its own life. Love soars one way or another. And love sticks to you, and love takes you with it. If love is a humming bird, let it be a humming bird and go as it wills. Love cannot be held on to. It must be free as a bird or as a kite that you let go of. Watch it go high. You have been in the presence of love. This is a very good thing. And love rising takes you with it, even as you weep on Earth.

From the height of love come laughter and tears like the splashing of a waterfall. Who bemoans the splashing of water? It is the nature of waterfalls to splash. Let the splashes fall on you. Have merriment. The splashes will dry, and yet, and yet, they are still part of you, deeper than anything, deeper than anything except love rising.

Heavenletter #80 Published on: January 19, 2001

Never mind if you believe in Me. It is enough to believe in Godness. Godness I am.

I am a Truth-Sayer and a Truth-Giver.

I am a Hound of Truth.

I am Truth and the Essence of It.

I am all-good, for I am All-God.

What would God be? That Which I Am.

I am your Mentor.

I am your Far-Seer.

I am your Benefactor.

I am your Deliverer.

But I am not a Tooth Fairy, I am not a Fairy Godmother, and I am not Santa Claus — as you think of them.

And yet I am they too.

I give to you.

I give all to you.

And you have it.

When you think of a Fairy Godmother you think you need more direction and guidance.

When you think of the Tooth Fairy, you think you need reward.

When you think of Santa Claus, you think of being satiated with the fulfillment of all your worldly desires and to have new greater ones next year. All the new year you will store up your desires for shiny new things.

In truth, you desire shining light, that which shines without tarnish, without rust, without batteries.

All the time, what you really yearn for is True Light.

All the material things light you up for but a moment, but True Light does not dim. It is not dim now. Only your perception of it is dim.

Undim your perception.

Know clearly and decisively that for which you seek.

Seek for no substitutes.

Seek for the real thing, and that is I, and that is you.

In this regard, be wary of what you spend money on and why you spend it. What you spend money on will not bring you what you desire. The material you seek does not bring you its promise. All the promises are false. They are short-lived. You put your energy and thoughts and money into them. The money is the least thing. What you give with the money is yourself. You pay money to sell yourself on something that does not begin to be worth the exchange of yourself.

Spending money is like having fame. For a moment, you are a star or a hero that rescues an object, and for that, you gain applause. But the applause is not for you. It is for the sale. Your money was spent for illusion, and the applause is also illusion.

Be aware of what you applaud yourself for.

Anyone who has money can spend it. It is no great thing. Spending a million dollars seems more exciting than spending a dollar, but the transaction is the same.

It is money spent on illusion.

You know this is true.

I am not telling you not to spend money.

I am telling you not to put your trust in illusion but in truth.

You have been led to madly desire that which is 100% guaranteed to disappoint.

You need only a little desire for that which will bestow Allness. The desire for light is not limited. It is not selfish. When you gain light, you gain it for all around you. It cannot be kept to yourself.

Be wary of selfishness, for it is not your true nature. It is a protective device you assume, as false as all the others.

When you are selfish, you hide yourself. You keep to yourself. You keep illusion to yourself. But you are on earth to reveal, not to keep.

Get in practice. Reveal your generosity of heart.

The point of the story of the fishes and loaves is that when you share, you have more. That is the miracle. Sharing increases, and non-sharing decreases. Sharing gives you wealth, and non-sharing decreases wealth.

It is happiness you are looking for.

When you buy a persimmon, buy two, and give one to another. Give it anonymously. For then you give the applause to the universe and take it not unto yourself.

For, in truth, the persimmon comes from Me. And that is the message you pass along. And as you pass along Truth and Godness, that is how you open up the horizons and take greatness as your own and restore yourself to Me.

Heavenletter #4003 Published on: November 10, 2011

Whatever you do, do with love. Don't do it to vindicate yourself. Don't do it to be powerful. Don't do it to prove a point. Whatever it is you do, do it with love. This means to do it with caring. This does not mean you are not clear.

Even if you have to fire someone, you can do it clearly with compassion in your heart. You can do anything with compassion. You do what you have to do.

Again and again we come to your being considerate to others, not at the neglect of yourself, but for the purpose of making life a little easier for another. In so doing, you make life easier for yourself. You enhance the world, and you enhance another, and you enhance yourself.

There are better words than enhance. Perhaps revitalize. Renew. Refresh. Brighten. Restore. Remake. Rejuvenate. Replenish. Redirect. Fill. Amplify. Change. Heighten. Bless. Yes, bless, is a good word. Whatever you have to do, bless another person's life.

You may think this is a hard assignment. It is easier than you think. Do good, but do not be a do-gooder. Quietly, unobtrusively, further My Will, not as a project, but as a way of life. And so you imbue love to the world. And so you partner with Me. And so you make love the heir apparent in the world. This is how you sow love in the world and sustain love in the world. You plant love in the world. You strew seeds of love. This is natural to do. It is unnatural to abstain from enlivening love, circulating love, marking your path with love, making of your life a wreath of love.

Picture the world woven with leis of love. Place a lei of love around everyone's neck. Place this lei around the necks of even those who make life difficult for you. Just hand them a lei and go merrily on your way.

Leave rose petals of love wherever you go. No one needs to know that the petals of love came from you. They just need to know the love and carry it along with them.

I sent you to Earth as a blessing to the world. This is what you were made for. You want to know your purpose in life? I am telling you once again what your purpose is. With your eyes, your thoughts, your speech, circulate love. With every transaction, drop off quiet easy love and leave it there. You do not require a certificate of receipt. I am the Sender of Love, and you are the deliverer of love. You are not aggrandized because you drop off love. You are My simple messenger. What more is there for Me to say?

I will think of something. I will say you are My Beautiful Messenger of Love. You are the bouquet of flowers I bequeathed to the world. I hand-picked you. I pick well. I know what I am doing. I knew what I was doing when I picked you from all the flowers at My disposal and planted you where I planted you with My own two hands.

You are on Earth to succor the world and to smooth its creases and give solace to all the other flowers who have the same purpose as you.

You need no breaks from giving love. You need no substitute, no diversion. Leaving petals of love is what you do. Whatever other tasks you take on, whatever your work, whatever you commute, wherever you may be stationed, you are to hand out love. Inasmuch as you come from My heart, what else really can your purpose on Earth be if not to feel My love and spread My love exceedingly?

You are growing in love and wisdom right and left. And the growing is not always easy. Your ego is being wracked right and left, and that is how you grow. Ego is forced to step aside, at least for a while, and you see yourself rising to the sun. You did not get burned. Your ego did.

Ego doesn't go up in flames without a fight. I talk about ego as though you have no responsibility for it. Never mind, you are learning to get along without it or without so much of it.

You are really beginning to learn that there are no affronts to you, only to your ego. Oh, beloveds, think of what it will be when ego no longer pesters you and gets the best of you and when you stand above it. Picture yourself standing tall, ego on the floor beneath, and with your foot on ego, you keep it down. Now ego submits to you, instead of your submitting to ego. Now you have risen, and you are vaulting across the Universe knowingly with Me.

Ego has cramped your style. You are just beginning to find out what your style is, your true style, your true way of being unshackled from ego and ego needs. When you don't have ego, what do you require? Without ego, you who are everything have everything you need. And, if there should be something you don't have, then you don't need it. You did very much need to be without commandeering ego, that selfish twit of an ego who got in your way. I say this as it is.

We do not make an ode to ego, nor do We hold animosity toward the now fallen ego. Although ego has been an opponent, it had its purpose for you. It brought you to where you are now. Now you are a hero to yourself. Without ego, you can truly love your God-given self. Ego was like a rash, hot and itchy, and now you are not inflamed. Now you are calm and cooled down. You have removed the hair shirt of ego. No longer do you bow to it. Now you bow to the sun and to the God in you.

Let Us thank ego for helping you and the world to see what ego really looks like, hardly the picture you had of it and the importance you held it in. Now you remove your foot from the prone ego and let it go off with its tail between its legs. Ego was all an illusion anyway. It never existed except as you gave homage to it. Ego had you twisted around its little finger. How presumptuous ego was.

Now you are free of ego. Even though it had you in its power, it had no power except as you granted it. You fed ego's ego. And now you are free. Or almost free. You certainly are getting there.

What is there to say about ego when it is gone or well on its way out? Ego really never had anything to do with you! It was your ego! Instead of your training this errant ego, you let it train you! And now you are getting out from under ego. You used to be prone on the floor of life, and ego had its foot on you. You let ego go. Avast, ego, avast. At last, you are releasing your hold on it.

Let's have a party. Let's have a Thanksgiving Day. Hurray, you are outliving ego and all the pictures of the past.

Have you not let your heart become discouraged so easily? Beloveds, let your heart be encouraged instead. Look for opportunities to uplift your heart. Let discouragement be gone. Let encouragement arise. Beloveds, it comes down to your being good to yourself. You think that it is something outside you that makes you frustrated and unhappy. It is your own self-referral that does that. It is expectation you put on yourself that does.

If something isn't the way you think it should be, you feel that you have failed. Whether voiced or not, you call yourself names. You decide that you are up against it and are not up to the task. You bind yourself with perimeters you put around yourself. Free yourself instead. Free yourself from frustration, beloveds. Free yourself from these little snips and snails. You make your own self unhappy over little things. First, by the idea that everything must be just so. Second, that if it isn't, you must fight it. Better to be glad about something.

Be glad that We have the Oneness of Self that We refer to as each other. We are one another. Be glad there is the One of Us. What can entangle you when We are Oneness Supreme? What otherness must interfere with Oneness? What would you allow between Us? What would you insert between Us? There is nothing that need come between the function of Our One Heart.

Would you let a red light come between Us? Would you let an idiosyncrasy of the computer come between Us? A dog barking outside? A stubbed toe? What could possibly be worthy of interference with Our love? What is this little fuss about? Put these tiny matters aside and return to the Oneness that We are. Come into this valley of love with Me. It is a haven. It is a safe place where distraction and inconvenience do not enter. In this valley of Our heart, aggravation does not enter. It is too small a thing. In this valley of our heart, We are occupied with love. Is there something else you would rather be occupied with? Some nonsense, perhaps?

Haven't you had enough of that? Have you not spent years delving into what pains your heart? Have you not had enough of putting yourself aside and choosing to relegate yourself to dissatisfaction of one kind or another? Have you not specialized in it? Have you not become an expert at it? From this moment on, disqualify yourself. At this time, become dissatisfied with old ways of thinking, tantamount to beating yourself up. That is what frustration is, beloveds, some kind of self-torment. Release yourself now.

Give up on frustration. It never was your friend. Why are you beholden to it? Be beholden to joy instead. Hold joy up to scrutiny instead of pesky frustration. Beloveds, there is a Hall of Greatness for you to enter. Enter it now. I invite you. I take you by the hand. I lead you to the still waters. Immerse yourself in them. Let go of the rough waters. Lie back. Float for a while, beloveds, float in My love. Be buoyed by My love. There is nothing else like it.

Heavenletter #4001 Published on: November 8, 2011

If it's not one thing that bothers you, it is another. Is this not so? When you live with someone, you are aggravated. When you live alone, you are lonely. It is yourself you have to come to peace with.

I do not say that coming to peace with yourself is easy. I am saying that you have to find a way to stop letting your circumstances infringe on your spirit as you do.

Life is not always a piece of cake. And yet, beloveds, you are growing to be the piece of cake, a person who doesn't get bothered by so much. You may be in the fray at the same time as you are beyond it. You may be in the midst of the fray, and yet you are not embroiled in it.

Life for you becomes like a book you can put down. Unless you love it, you don't have to read the entire book. You don't have to absorb the details. The book can be there on your coffee table, and yet what occurs in the book doesn't overcome you. You can be in the midst of chaos and not drink in the chaos.

You have always wanted to be your own person. I am telling you now that you are your own person. You are very much your own person. You are the one who hasn't quite imbibed that.

It is no longer viable for you to say, for example, "That's how I am. Little things bother me. Big things too. I have always been sensitive to my environment."

Change your inner environment. Be sensitive to the feelings of others. When you are feeling put upon, what can you do is to lighten the burden of someone else, perhaps even the person who is impinging upon you? Be what you want the other person to be. You, yourself, give what you crave.

Your chances of changing another person are slim. Changing another is harder than changing yourself. How you change yourself is how you look at things. Let a little light in. Pull up the blinds of your own heart. Others, or one other, is inconsiderate of your feelings? Then you be more considerate of their feelings.

When others are rude to you, then you are courteous to them. When others are inconsiderate of you, then you are very considerate to them. Consider this a game you play in life, and this is how you play it. The rule to follow is to give better than you receive. And when you receive nothing from others, then you give them the favor you would like from them.

This game is called: Not Tit for Tat. It is called: No Limits. It is called: Giving Love Even When You Don't Receive it. It is called: Being a Good Sport. It is called: Setting an Example. It is called: Rising a Notch. It is called: Growing Up. It is also called The Golden Rule.  This is the rule of thumb you are to go by. Go by it now. Even if you have to pull yourself up by your bootstraps, do it.

Beloveds, there is no other rule to follow. Kill or be killed is not your motto. Lash out first is not your motto. Defend is not your motto. Offend is the antithesis of your model. Hurt before someone else does is not your motto. Have the final word is not your motto. Will you accept the motto I give you? From this day forth, Love is your motto.

Remember that wherever you are, whatever location or condition, I am with you. Remember Me, and a greater sense of peace will be yours. Let Me be a balm to you. Whatever is upsetting you, better to vent on Me than anyone else.

The reason for this is that I can take it. It doesn't matter to Me what you say to Me. Your negativity is no more than a ping pong ball to Me. I said your negativity. You, on the other hand, are fully important to Me. You matter to Me deeply.

When you vent, even just within yourself, the individual you are venting on receives your thoughts and gripping emotions and may not be able to deal with them. He may not know from where the negativity comes, but he will sense the negativity and be discomfited. For the sake of the world, I ask you to vent on Me. And if you can do without venting altogether, that will be a boon for you and a boon for the Universe.

You may feel that no one is listening to you. I am telling you that the whole world is listening to you. It's unfortunate that everyone doesn't give you their full attention. If they did, if they knew to, if they saw you as I see you, if they heard your heartbeats as I hear your heartbeats, then you might not be having the negative thoughts and feelings you may presently feel bound to vent. And, yet, just the same, you are responsible for any and all negativity you have thumping in your heart.

If I were you - and, of course, I am - I wouldn't wait for your worth to be recognized. Others may overlook you, discount you. They may not give you the importance you are entitled to, yet that doesn't mean you are to give them such importance as to ruin your day or even a moment of your day. What someone thinks of you or doesn't think of you isn't worth the time of day. Shake off their thoughts and emotions. Focus on something else. Focus on something that gives you even a shred of happiness. Even a shred of happiness is worth ten thousands more than a barrelful of negativity. Negativity is a negative. It's not worth anything. It is a minus. You might as well take poison as to accept negativity from yourself or take anyone's negativity into your heart. Watch whom you spend your time with. Look for people who think grander than you may have been thinking.

Yes, very definitely, I am for positive thinking. I am a Positive Thinker Myself. Will you give attention to positive thinking? Positive thinking isn't a fad. It isn't an application. It is place for you to climb to. It will put you in good stead.

You can always rise higher, and yet rising higher is not an option. Decide once and for all that you will rise above your previous thinking. Your rising higher is no longer an option for you. It is a definite. Make life easier and note opportunities to rise higher. Do it for Me. You will gain tremendously, yet do not rise higher for the sake of gain. Rise higher because I ask it of you. Rise higher, for there is a next step for you and rising higher is it. I hold nothing against you, yet I do not applaud your clinging to a lesser platform. Because I ask you to change doesn't mean I don't honor you now. I honor you very much. You occupy My heart. Rise with every beat of My heart and yours.

Do you sometimes feel that you aren't supposed to be enjoying the relative, or enjoying it as much as you do? Beloved, enjoy the relative for all you are worth. I give you permission. Do not feel that you are to abstain from enjoying the world and only be spiritual or more spiritual. Love what you love. Enjoy what you enjoy. Love whom you love.

Do not feel that you are supposed to love Me more than anyone. Be glad you love plain simple Human Beings. There is no competition between Us. When you love another, you love Me.

Let's face it. You love the physical. You love the senses. You love flowers, and you love someone to give them to you. Ultimately, it is I Who give you flowers, I, Who give you everything. It is oftentimes easier for you to relate to Christ and Buddha and all the Great Ones because they had form. You love stories, beloveds, and you love pictures, and you love action heroes. You love mythology, so love it. You love Krishna, so love him. Everyone is made in My image. Everyone is My image. They give My image shape and form. You may have thought that it's been hard for you to love humanity, but the fact is that you love it with all your heart. You are enchanted with it. I am the Creator. It is well and good for you to love what I have created.

I don't ask you to think of Me all day every minute. Think of Me but not as an obligation. I am here always. Be with Me in your awareness as I fit into your life. Please do not think you are to love Me over everyone else as if it were a contest, nor are you to love Me to the exclusion of anyone else. I am your One God, yet love Human Beings to your heart's content.

Of course, you are attracted to the relative field of life. That's what it's here for. You are supposed to play in it. Interacting with Me in the Silence is wonderful, and I recommend it. Yes, it is everything, but it is not the only thing. It is All, and All includes a field to play in. Never force yourself to be with Me. We are together anyway.

I do not ask you to fast. I do not ask you to abandon the world. I ask you to enjoy more. You serve Me through joy, beloveds, not forced solicitude.

I am not a school you must attend. I do not send a truant officer after you. You will not be suspended nor expelled. You retain your membership in My heart.

Although I am the main event of your life, it's fine with Me for you to consider Me an after-school activity. I am a 24-hour activity, or rather, non-activity. I am 24-hour Being, and so are you.

Two streams diverge, and then they meet in the Ocean. They did not have to sacrifice their flow in order to honor the Ocean. They did not have to remonstrate with themselves: "Oh, I shouldn't be flowing so happily, listening to the birds, enjoying my waves. I should be thinking only of the Ocean right now."

Yes, think of Me at the same time as you do not have to think of Me. Let thinking of Me become joy. You are apprenticed to Me, but you are not indentured. And the time is getting closer when you will spontaneously know Who you are and We will be inseparable in your awareness as well as fact. This Greater Awareness will happen naturally and is not to be forced.

Heavenletter #2268 Published on: February 9, 2007

Is it really so important that everyone agree with you about anything or everything? Even when you are absolutely right, how much does it matter? What is your vested interest that you must have agreement. Give everyone their free-wheeling space, and have yours.

When you complain to someone, you are waiting for their agreement. Is their agreement really such a weighty thing that you would wait for it? What is it that you need confirmed? And why do you need it anyway?

Serve others, and don’t ask for much. Opinions are opinions, and that’s all they are. Here today and gone tomorrow. You may not even agree with yourself tomorrow!

That is a good thing that you can change your mind. Change it often. Reach new levels.

Not everyone agrees with Me. You may not. This is your freedom of will. I gave it to you. Now it is for you to give freedom to everyone. In theory, you love freedom for all. In actuality, you are not so sure. Not that you would infringe on anyone. Oh, no, you only want to be agreed with. You only want to enlighten others, bring them to their senses and your way of thinking.

This is a losing battle, beloveds. It is not winnable. Even if you win, you have won nothing. A nod of the head, a word. This is what winning an argument is made of. Don’t argue, and you will not win nor lose the nothing at all that is at stake.

Get on with your life. In life, it is like you are taking a walk. If someone wants to walk with you, you are glad. If they want to take a different walk, that’s okay too. You may meet at a certain corner down the road anyway. Or you may not.

When you no longer require someone’s compliance or agreement, that will be a wonderful thing. As you release others, you release yourself. No one has to conform to another’s thoughts. Thoughts are up for grabs.

Even if you are an employer, maybe you are the one who has to change his mind. But for that you have to listen first. And if you are an employee, you will have to listen and oblige, even when it makes no sense to you.

It is not compromise I speak of. It’s just that everything may not be the way you want, or even the way it should be. And your lack of agreement does not have to be a stumbling block. You don’t have to make a fuss about it. You don’t have to get in a huff. Of course, there is a certain line beyond which you will not step, and that is up to you. That is your freedom of choice. You always have a choice, beloveds. It’s that you don’t always know what you are choosing. It’s that sometimes you choose ego over everything.

You are free to be hasty, and you are free to take your time.

You are free to disagree, and you are free to drop it.

You are free to be anything at all.

You are free to cry, and you are free to laugh.

You are free to create tension, and you are free to create peace.

You are free to give all you are worth, and you are free to give nothing at all.

Your choices will come according to the step you stand on. Climb higher, and you will see farther, and, when all is said, you will make choices good for all on all levels.

Sometimes you may feel as though you are on the front lines. There is a battle going on, and you are right out there fighting it, or you skirt around danger that seems to lurk everywhere. You have your sword ready. You fight off foes. You have to be on alert and wear your Tevlar vest. What is this battle? Are you at war? Have you considered life a danger zone and that you must be on guard? You are ready to duel. You will take pot shots because you think you have to in order to get through the brambles.

Where does this tenseness in your body come from? What are you affrighted of? What is it that makes sleep difficult? Who or what is the enemy you guard yourself from? Who or what has dug a pit that, at any moment, you could fall into? Who or what is plotting to hurt you?

This is no way to live, and yet have you not lived this way? Day after day, you hug yourself to your heart and say, “Let me be safe.”

Your fears are nebulous. Do not defend your fears. Let them go. Do not conduct war. Let your war with life be over. Do not be a soldier on the front lines of your life.

Carry a flag of love instead. Love is lurking around every corner. Love is not a danger. No longer imagine danger around any corner. Forget corners. Remember love.

Remember My love. Remember in Whose care you are.

You say, “But there is danger, God. There is no way to know what will happen the minute I step out the door. There is no way to know what will happen even when I stay in my house under the covers. There is no place of safety in this whole wide world. I am thin-skinned. I have no armor. Of course, I protect myself. I protect my body from harm.”

I say to you to foremost protect your heart and mind from harm. The fear you put yourself through is not worth it. It doesn’t save your body anyway.

Is dying your greatest fear and, therefore your enemy? Are you fighting death? Is humiliation your greatest fear? Are you protecting yourself from error? How big an enemy is error really? What is the down side of error? Humiliation, I suppose. Be humble then. Do away with ego. Do not stay a soldier.

If you cannot ward off the dangers you imagine anyway, why not surrender your fear of them? Why catalogue all the possible affronts to you? Big or little, they are of no account.

I know, I know, you can think of a whole list of fearful possibilities. You could lose your job. You could get bruised. You could get confined. You could get a speeding ticket. You could be in an accident. You could be murdered. You could lose your head. You could be insulted. You could lose your footing. You could be blind-sided. You could be betrayed. You could be ignored. You could be noticed. On and on goes the list of unwanted possibilities.

I would like to ask you to throw away your fears. They are throw-aways. There is no advantage to the list of fears you keep.

Compile a different list, one of all the wonderful possibilities. Awake with that new list, and go to sleep with that new list embedded in your heart. Why live with fear? Fear gives you no safety, none at all. In fact, fear stomps on you.

I will start your new list for you: Nice surprises. Smiles. Sunshine. Peace. Rest. Good fortune. Wonderful people. A gold coin. An embrace. A good book …

Heavenletter #3998 Published on: November 5, 2011

Although there is often a fine line between unselfishness and discounting yourself, you are to be unselfish. You do not erase yourself, and yet you do not always put yourself first. You don't make fusses. You don't always have to assert yourself. Asserting yourself is often taking the low road. Take the high road, and your personal preferences subside. Your personal rights no longer have the importance they once had.

You grow to be more present for others. Not from appeasement, not to win points, but from your service to Me. A true leader serves. He does not serve himself so much. He does not serve himself first. A true leader can sit on the side lines. He sees needs, and he fills them. At the very least, he acknowledges others' needs. He serves, and yet he is not subservient.

All your lessons in life bring you to the point where your personal needs are not so overwhelming as they once were. Their urgency is less. Balance takes over. You do not diminish yourself. You rise higher, that's all.

You become more rather than less. You make different choices. You assert love over your rights. You are no longer so eager to be recognized. Reaction does not dominate. You act more and react less. You no longer have to assert yourself. You are strong enough within yourself that you can listen. You can set yourself aside more because you are stronger within yourself.

You do not erase yourself. You simply are less ego-driven. You relegate ego to a back seat. The more important you become to the Universe, the less important your self-importance is. Seeing from on high, your vision is vaster. You become vaster. There has been a shift in you.

When you see differently, you simply see differently. It wasn't an attainment. You simply rose to a bigger perspective, and you welcomed it.

No longer do you want to hold on to a lesser vision. No longer can you. Just as when your body grows to six feet, your former clothes no longer fit. You cast them off for clothes that fit. It is not that you take great credit for your growth. Your growth was inevitable. No matter how much you may have desired it, it comes on its own.

So is your inner growth. It arises, and you are risen. You may have desired it, and yet you didn't make it happen. It comes when it comes.

You may desire enlightenment. You can try everything to make it happen. You can take course after course. Ultimately, the best you can do is receive enlightenment. You can notice your growth and be glad. But never is enlightenment your doing. Enlightenment is not meant to be an ego-booster. It is a gift. It belongs to you, and yet it is God-given.

Desire to be more understanding. Desire to be a giver. Desire to be My messenger. Desire to receive My messages. Desire to be an exponent of My Will.  Desire to come from a higher place. Desire to contribute to the world. Desire peace in the world and peace in your heart. Desire to be humble. Desire My desires. Desire to see. Desire to love. Desire to know when to speak and when to be silent. Desire to be evidence of My love. Desire to be a granter of My wishes. Desire to be a holder of peace. Desire to bless the world. Desire to herald Heaven. Desire to make the world all it has long wanted to be. Desire that the world be filled with love.

Heavenletter #2516 Published on: October 15, 2007

When you are not feeling happy, you are an imposter. The reality of you is joy, regardless of what is happening and how you seem to be feeling. There is that level of joy within you that laughs at everything and knows folly when it sees it. Be an imposter no longer. Don’t believe in the supremacy of the world and its events over the joy that lies within you. Let the joy be dominant.

Even when you are in tears, there is a part of you that sees you in tears and knows better than to hold much stock in them. There is a part of you that watches and perceives greater, that perceives beyond your tiny perception at any one given moment. There is a thread of you that acknowledges you are an actor on stage. How well you have learned your lines. How well you have learned assigned emotions. You caught on so quickly. All your life you have responded on cue. Now you are supposed to be sad. Now you are supposed to be worried. Now you are to have anxiety. Now you are supposed to be angry. Now you are supposed to feel lost, abandoned, bereft. All this because you were taught well and learned well.

What if you had been taught different cues? Not to be brave, but not need to be brave. What if you had been taught to shrug off events and not make them star in your life? Even though you do not put your hand to your heart every moment, you know your heart beats. What if you knew that despite your lack of awareness of joy, that joy is a running stream within you that is your fountainhead? What if you could put your hand over your heart and feel the joy that beats within?

No longer buy into suffering. It has been imposed upon you. Buy into laughter instead. Life is funny, isn’t it? All that you hold important may not be so important. Beloveds, you lead two lives, maybe three. You lead the outer life. You lead the inner life you believe in. And there is a third secret life you live. It need be secret no longer. Abjure to the joyousness within that wishes to come out and be public. Joy is tired of being held back, kept secret, denied, as if unhappiness were somehow more worthy.

What if you put the shoe on the other foot? What if you choose happiness to surface, and let suffering disband itself, no longer to be welcome, no longer to hold a high place in your heart, now to be dismissed, shaken off like dust from a dust mop.

Beloveds, why do you hold on to suffering when it only makes you suffer? If you could only believe in happiness, and that it is long-lasting, eternal, that it outdistances suffering by a long shot, that you can substitute happiness for suffering if you but choose. Even at what you perceive as loss, you can have happiness. You did have the good fortune to have enjoyed what you now perceive as loss.

What if you did not perceive loss? What if you gave up on it? What if you did not sanction the concept of loss and the concept of a heart that can ever lose anything?

Is not suffering the mistake of the intellect you have heard about? Suffering is an error. It is always an error. You have believed there was a need for suffering. It has held a high place in your life. You have noted all the causes for unhappiness and overlooked the one cause for happiness. See the events of your life with less passion. No longer be an actor who performs on cue.

My dear children, when you want something of someone, you are expecting something from them. When you want someone to do something a certain way, or be a certain way, you are trying to control. Control opposes. It is rigidity. Control closes down. You exert control. There is a force that exerts control. Freedom is not exerted. It is allowed. The nurturing of freedom opens to Heaven.

Feel what it feels like to free another soul on earth. To let them go their way, and you go yours. Sometimes your ways meet. Sometimes they part. Eventually they all meet with lifted hearts, because all paths converge in My heart.

When you free another to Me, you are giving great blessing. When you hold on to someone — which is the same as holding onto an idea in your mind — you are restricting them. Whatever your intentions, you cage them.

Practice giving freedom. Practice allowing others to soar free.

Consider the leaves on My beautiful trees. You do not order them to turn color in the fall. You do not tell them which color and when. You do not hurry them nor slow them down. You do not tell them how to fall. You do not say, "Now, this leaf over here, and that one over there." You do not order an oak to become a willow. You do not order a tree to grow green leaves in the spring, or a rose to bloom.

What is it that you do then? You watch the transformation of nature. There is awe in your heart. You let the trees fulfill themselves and the roses to bloom the colors they will, and all the while, you are the one who is transformed.

But when it comes to My children, you want your design to be fulfilled. And when it is not, you, at the very least, set your lips in a straight line.

You are not here on blessed earth to approve or disapprove. You are not here to convert others. You are not here to make sure that life converges to your picture.

You are here to bless the divergence of My children on earth. When you know they are in My care, when you know they are as much on their way to Me as are you, then you see beauty, and you can let them go. When you entrust others to My care, you are freed.

One who binds another binds himself.

One who frees others frees himself.

The controller is the controlled.

Do not assume roles.

Your role is not to be strict teacher, improver, or adjucator.

Your role is to be the child I made you to be.

You have enough to do to stop controlling yourself and trying to make yourself into someone else's picture of you. Isn't it you who tells Me that you have too much to do and cannot possibly do it all? Leave the world to Me, and you will focus your energy. You will have energy. Dissipate your God-given energy no longer.

Picture in your mind a cattle ranch. The gates open wide, and the cattle go free. At first it is tumultuous, but then the sound of hooves quiets down.

The cattle are all your preconceived ideas, and opening the gate is letting them go.

Picture yourself blessing each person you care about and caring about them enough to set them free. You are not abandoning them. You are releasing your imagined held-onto hold. You are giving them to My loving jurisdiction. When you free someone, you are freeing them to Me. What is so hard about freeing loved ones? They will find their way without your exertion. They will find their way better without your overseeing.

Entrust yourself to Me. Trust that you are getting through the brambles of life. The brambles are manifestations of your attempted control. They are what you have held on to. The brambles of life are the barbed wire of control. Now, breathe in. And as you breathe out, fences melt, great pastures appear, and you are free to walk the cascading hills.

There is nothing far away, and there is nothing close. Without the notion of time and space, where can time and space exist? A notion is a mistaken idea. It is a phantom.

You are My thought, but you are not My notion. A thought I have cannot be a notion, for My thought and Truth are One.

Your thoughts also manifest. In the arena of the notion of time and space, soon or late your thoughts appear before you. This is not to say that everything that appears before you is your thought. In this fragmented appearance you live in, there are other people’s thoughts as well.

Certainly, other people’s thoughts affect you. Someone’s mood affects you. Someone’s actions. And yet, there is no “you”. That is only a notion given much support in the land called Earth. The separation that you experience can only be a notion. Without the notion of separation, there would be no “you”. And therefore there would no “I” as you see Me now. Oneness can only be Oneness. It cannot be two-ness. For the sake of argument – for the sake of agreement really – We say We and Our and You and Your. But it is all as if.

The whole experience on the realm of Earth is as if. Nothing is as it seems. Even the ground under your feet is not as it appears. Even the sky above. Even the galaxies and beyond.

Whereas ego on Earth would make you big, it doesn’t touch the hem of the Greatness that you are. Ego would blow you up like a balloon when you are already expanded beyond what ego can conjure. Imagine dubbing a King a prince! Imagine dubbing King one who is already King. That is very much after the fact. Ego is so needless that it would make you believe you need it whispering in your ear.

What is ego but a notion? Ego does not exist. It is a false front. Your body does not exist either. Would you weep unless you thought you had a body? Without a body, you wouldn’t even know there was anything to weep for. Without a body, you would know neither joy nor pain. This does not mean there is no joy. This means there is only joy. There is no word for the state of joy where only joy exists. Words make distinctions, and there is nothing about joy that is distinct when it is all. The closest word for joy is love. In a permanent state of love, is there anything else you could know? or imagine? Why would you bother?

Truth is that which remains when notions vanish. The only Truth is love. Your true existence is love. You might as well begin now being that which you already are. That is the only thing to do.

You will accept that you are My love, won’t you? You no longer feel that I sit in judgment on you, do you? When I see the true light of your love, what would there be for Me to judge? I do not judge you wanting. You have enough judgment to fill the world. You don’t need Mine. Surely you must agree that the world is filled with judgment. Judgment is like the bargain basement of the world. You can find everything there, and it is practically free. Except you pay a high price for it, whether you are the one who judges or the one who is judged. Bargains are often not bargains. Certainly judgment is not a good deal.

And so, My beloveds, you are without everything but love. There is nothing else for you to have, and there is nothing else for you to be.

Heavenletter #2878 Published on: October 11, 2008

What you think you want and what you truly deep-down want may be two different things. You already know you have in the past desired something or someone, and you didn't get what you had your mind and heart set on. Perhaps a thread of you understood that you were better off without that which you desired, but you wanted what you wanted and you did not want to believe otherwise, is this not so? At the time your dream broke, you were devastated, and later you may have found yourself relieved. Now you know that what formerly was a great disappointment and loss to you was a blessing all along. How blessed you are for what you receive and what you do not receive. How blessed you are.

Once upon a time, you may have wanted to open a certain kind of business, and as fortune would have it, you did open the business you so desired. Soon you discovered that, no matter how much you had wanted this business, it wasn't really for you, and you were not for it. You had started in a certain direction, and you kept going. You wanted it because you wanted it, and it really wasn't what you thought it would be at all. You went the long way around only to finally stop and go another way altogether.

It might have been nice if something had stopped you sooner.

When it is a man or woman you deeply love and you are left at the altar or some such, no matter how much you saw this as a loss and bemoaned it, now you see differently. Now you can't even conceive what it was you were thinking — what were you thinking? If all your previous desires had been fulfilled, happiness still would not have been yours. You were banking on matters that cannot be banked on.

Everything in life seems to spare you from something else. It is not always supreme when your heart's desires are fulfilled. You don't like finding out that you were barking up the wrong tree. Sometimes you have been like a monkey who can't let go of the vine he is swinging on. You hold on because you are holding on and you don't want to get off.

Certainly, you have discovered in life that everything you wish for does not come to pass. There was a time when you thought whatever you desired with all your heart would, of course, come true. Little by little, one by one, your fingers were plied off that dream. Now hold your hands out, palms up, to see what is poured into them — perhaps treasures you had never thought of, perhaps dreams you had not the foresight to dream of.

Whatever dreams may come, they serve a purpose. And whatever dreams do not come, they also serve a purpose. The whole Universe is at your feet, beloveds, like a shoe salesman, trying on shoes for you, smoothing the way for you. The longest way around may be the shortcut; the shortcut may be the long way around. How are you to know, beloveds?

So amble along in life. Love what you love and don't hold on too tight. Give your dreams a chance to breathe. And don't let go too quickly either. Dream. Don't hold tight, and don't be hasty and throw your dreams away either. Gravitate away from dreams that you think your life depends on, as if without it, you are bereft. Dream your dreams, and let people and let life follow their own stream of divine dreaming.