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Heavenletter #3496 Published on: June 21, 2010

Whatever issue you have, you can face it. There is a deep issue within you that you have been running away from. You don't want to face it. Suddenly, you see it, staring you in the face. It may have been haunting you all your life. And now you see it. Now it is as if you see yourself under an X-ray. There is no avoiding it now.

Perhaps your issue is abandonment. That sounds clinical, yet it may be your underlying issue. It may be what you have been running away from, that you have an issue that is at the crux of your dealing in life. It may be at the crux of all your sadness and all the vague uneasiness you feel.

A workman may say he is coming to do some necessary work, and then he doesn't come at all. You don't know why that hits you so hard. He got your hopes up. He was going to do a great job, and now you don't know whether or not he is coming ever, and you are crushed. Or he comes and does not live up to his promise in other ways, and you are so disappointed. The workman became a bigger issue to you than himself. He perhaps symbolized all the disappointments in your life.

At some point in your life, when you were a child, you felt you were out there as a stray, and strays long to be picked up and reassured. You perhaps did not have the reassurance. The sense of bereftness has lingered. Without realizing it, you may have carried this seemingly-forgotten anguish around with you.

The world has not always been a safe place for your beautiful heart. You made too much of the world. You let the world decide your well-being. The world may not have come to the fore to take good care of your needs. And you thought you were dependent upon the world.

Whatever the deep abiding issue within you may be called, it arises from your dependency on the world. Under the underlying issue lies another issue. But I think the crux of your issue, whatever its name, lies in a perceived utter subjection to the world.

The world is temperamental, beloveds. You do not always feel honored, respected, or taken care of by the world. It may not have taken good care of you, and now, perhaps, you blame your sense of desolation on a mere workman. You hadn't realized how fragile you felt, and yet what you feel is not always what is.

If you were dependent upon how the world treats you, you would indeed be in trouble. Once you were little, and you were helpless. Now you are big, and you are not helpless. Yet you may still see yourself as helpless, just a little cog in a big wheel. You may even feel like the dartboard of the world. This is illusion.

You are not at the mercy of the world. That is only a thought, and, like the world, your thoughts are not always reliable.

To recognize the fallacy of this thought is part of your education in life. It is time for you to graduate from this fallacy. It is never too late. The time is now.

This reliance on the world is an old thought whose time is done. Now you break through the ribbon of this thought, and you come out a winner of the race. Your old belief is not so powerful as it once was. It is dwindling, as well it must. You are moving out of the domain of this illusory out-dated thought and moving on to new thoughts that support you. Once you were on a swing of unreliability, and now you are firmly on your own two feet, and you know you are with Me, and you know you are solidly in a reality of certainty. The world is not, once and for all, the decider of you, and now you no longer hold on to the thought that you require a savior. You are already safe with Me. I will never abandon you. And now you will never abandon yourself again to the winds of the world.

It is no comfort to My children to say that pain is not real. It feels very real, I know. But then, get your mind off the suffering, and the pain will not stalk.

But you say, "How can I get my mind off it? It hurts!"

Think of something else. Think of someone else. Think beyond the perimeters of your life. When the pain cannot be greater, perhaps it can be less. Choose your focus.

When your attention is on pain, you will certainly experience it. When your attention is on joy, you will equally experience it. Fear is joy displaced.

Pain is a form of fear. Call it crystallized fear. The vibration of your scream of fear created an embolism called pain. Or it is someone else's scream of pain that entered you and found issuance from your lips.

There is a scale of joy in Human life. Be upscale. Pain is a reduction of joy. Joy is the original and natural. Pain is an aberration. It does not belong there. Nor does its predecessor fear.

Fear is something you learned. Unlearn it. Be done with it. What is the point of it? What does it save you from? Certainly not itself.

Fear makes you tiptoe.

A child of Mine does not do well to tiptoe. You can tread gently upon earth, but that is not tiptoeing. Have you not had enough tiptoeing in your life? Or scrambling? Be a rightful walker upon earth. Take strides. Step over your fears, and they will be behind you. Then you can laugh at them instead of their laughing at you.

Fear mocks your rightful position in life. Fear is an interloper. It is an insurgent. It wants a revolution. It wants to oust you and take over. It wants to make you tremble.

Joy, on the other hand, fills you up. It gives, not takes. Spread joy like fear. Let joy be insidious. Let it enter everywhere. Announce its arrival. Be a flag of joy.

There is something in your life today that you can look at in a different way. There is some obstacle or stumbling-block that you can look at from a different angle. When you see it differently, it will be different because it bends and moves according to your vision. It becomes what you accord to it. Your thought keeps it in your way or dismantles it.

It is true: there is nothing that you cannot do. There is nothing you cannot be. There is nothing that you are not. The whole range of possibilities is yours. Choose your place.

I am, of course, not talking about the titles the world gives. I don't say you can become police captain or superintendent of schools. Of course, you may, but those are little things compared to what I speak of.

Wherever you are, whatever your circumstances, you can be a leader. You can lead the way to greatness. You can bear great love and great understanding. You can be an epitome of what Human man can be. Through My grace, you, in the world in the place you stand, can arrest the attention of the world. It is yours to do. You are already a model for the world. You already shape it. Now be a shining example of greatness upon earth.

Even the child shall lead. And you are all children. You are all innocent. Yet do not think it is little you against a big world. It is great you dropped into a little world. You are the changer and uplifter of it, and you do that right where you are. Start today with the glance you give to the world.

"Well, dear God, holy God, God of my Heart, I am Yours. I give myself to You Who gave myself to me. When I speak to You, all pettiness leaves my heart. I cannot remember what was on my mind. With You in my heart, my mind vanishes, and there is only You, and there is only I, and We are not twain but One. I am One with You, dear God. You fill my heart with Our Oneness. I am replete.

"I want to stay with You always. I want to carry You in my heart as You carry me in Yours. Why would I ever want to be any place else but with You? Why would I possibly want my own thoughts when I can have Yours?

"I see that love is a potion, and You pour it down from Heaven, and I catch it in my lips, and it fills my whole being, this love You pour so generously. I understand very well that there is nothing else You can do because You are only love, and therefore You are simply a Pourer of Love. I catch how Your love drops to Earth constantly but lightly, like wings alighting to suggest our longing for You. You do not deluge us with love because we would be overcome. So Your love rains to earth like a gentle summer rain. We may hardly notice, so constant and pure is Your love.

"We have never been without it. The sky is always raining Your love. The sun shines it. Night sky does not stop it. Stars blink Your love. And we Humans on Earth are droplets of Your love. We spill over the Universe, and we may forget that we are in the mainstream of You.

"But forgetting is only forgetting. Nothing is changed because we forget. You are steady. You calm the beat of our hearts. You dispel fear. You fill us with Wonder and Oneness.

"You are my own true God. You have inserted Yourself into my heart. No, You have not inserted. You belong there within my heart, but now You assert Yourself. You knock on my heart walls, and You say, 'I am here! I am here.'

"I hear You faintly. Sometimes I do not know from where the knocking comes. I look everywhere but in my own heart.

"I know You are everywhere. At least I have heard that that is so, but I do not know it yet for myself. So far it is only hearsay, my dear God. But I long for it to be true, and I long to behold You everywhere in everyone and everything.

"Perhaps when I know You better in my heart, I will be able to see You better in other places.

"I will pursue You, dear God. I will follow You from my heart to the great outdoors. I will follow You everywhere.

"I long to see only You. I want to keep this feeling You give me. I think this feeling is feeling as You feel. Does a God feel? You feel only love. That is all You feel, and that is all You know, and You want me to feel that same love coming into me and going out until there is no difference between inner and outer.

"You are a revelation. You reveal Yourself to me in all Your majesty, and You offer me Your totality, and I don't know what to say.

"You, God, say: 'Say nothing. Accept. Accept with your heart. That is enough. That is the only acceptance there is. My heart spills into yours, and it is called love. It is called Oneness. It is My call to you. Come join with Me. Be part and parcel of Me. You are that. You can only be that. You can't be anything else, but you can deny that, the truth of yourself. How well have you denied it! Deny no longer, and you will have accepted. You will have accepted My heart as yours. You will have accepted Truth which has always been yours to accept. I have never withheld from you.'"

Your eyes are the windows you look out from. Your eyes are not objective. Your eyes conjure up things. Your eyes flash pictures according to their own predilection. You sight ahead of time.

Two different sets of eyes see the same object and see it differently. Two may see the same movie and each see it in a way the other did not, perhaps even opposite, perhaps not seemingly the same movie at all. What is seen is open to interpretation. The same with hearing. I will talk about seeing now.

The act of seeing comes from somewhere. The object does not enter your eyes. Your eyes enter the object. You have double exposure. Clear your lens. That means to open your eyes wide. Like your heart, your eyes need to open without fear and therefore with the ability to see, just as the heart has to open without fear and therefore with the ability to love.

Eyes and heart work together. As your eyes open, so will your heart.

Often you do not see what is before you. You see a pre-picture. You see what you believe you will see or fear you will see. Built upon your past impressions, you draw conclusions before the object appears, and then you never see what is before you. You set yourself up.

The same object is seen as good or as bad depending upon whose eyes see and where the eyes are coming from. You have an extra set of eyes in your head called the mind. The mind steers your overt eyes. You know that what I say is true. You have an advisor within that allows only so much light in. This advisor or withholder of sight snaps a picture too soon, incompletely, or from an angle that is guaranteed not to let you see clearly. The mind is crafty. It protects you where no protection is needed.

Let's turn this around a little and look at how you have viewed yourself being viewed. Once upon a time you were seen in a certain way that perhaps did not do you honor, and now your eyes see others looking at you in the same way. You attached your past to your present. Your past perception may have been accurate or it may not, but in any case it is inaccurate and limiting to carry it into the present. You may even want to prove that your previous perception was accurate. Aha, you were right! Look at how you are underestimated, see?

Your responsibility now is to allow yourself to be seen differently. Prove yourself wrong. Prove that the world can react differently toward you than it has or you think it has. You have been telling the world how to see you. Now allow the world to see you. Change your picture of yourself so that others will begin to see.

This does not mean that you put a whole lot of weight in how the world sees you or that your joy in life goes up and down according to it. No, you are putting weight on your lighting the world. Lift yourself up so that others may be uplifted. Do not pull yourself down to a smaller size, for that pulls others down along with you. Help others to see bigger. Help others to see truth. Expand your vision, and expand others' as well. You must. This is what you must do and do today. See differently. See beyond what has previously occurred to you.

Consider what I have created. Start from here. Let the true you be seen and known. Let yourself up. Awaken to yourself. Cast My light before you so that others may see you and therefore themselves.

When you feel discouraged, you are forgetting something. You are most likely forgetting Me. But you have no difficulty in remembering lesser things.

You don't forget worldly matters. They are discouraging enough all right. Getting caught up in world thought discourages you like nothing else can. After all, you have not the means to buy everything that is flung at you to buy. You are not and may never be the advertised pinnacle of success. You are not and may well never be the model who flashes across the TV screen. But even the models, even the pinnacles of success, even the moneyed ones who have the means to buy everything buyable on the planet are not satisfied, and they get discouraged — why not you?

You often fall short of what is held up to you. You often are not heard. You are not consulted. You do not make decisions at peace talks. You may not make decisions in your own home.

Limitless-seeming are the things that can make you feel down, and they occupy a great deal of your attention. Unwittingly, you keep going back to the hot stove. No matter how many times your heart is foiled, you keep going back to the inducements of the world. Naively, you believe you will find your happiness there. No matter how many times you don't, you keep going back. Like a gambler to the dicing tables, you try one more time, over again and again. It is hard for you to accept that external matters by themselves just can't do it for you.

The bluebird of happiness is right in your back yard. It dwells in your heart. The outside, despite all its bounty, just cannot nourish your heart enough. No where near enough. Not consistently enough. Not often enough. Not lastingly enough. Sometimes not at all. Sometimes it takes away from you.

Must you put so much of your time and attention on matters of the world? I do not say to ignore the world. But if you made a pie-chart of where your attention goes, what kind of piece do you mark for your heart's renewal? By all means, do take care of your body. Do take care of your physical sustenance. Go to work. Mow the yard. Fix things around the house. Set your hair. Polish your nails. Write emails. Read magazines. Laugh. Eat out. Also allot a little time to awareness of Me, however you like to think of Me. Do not brush Me off.

Have awareness of Me in your heart. Intersperse Me throughout your day. You will have more energy. You will feel more heartened. This does not have to be prayer. Just say hello to Me now and then. Pretend you play tag with Me, and catch Me every once in a while. Take a moment to bless yourself with awareness of Me. Feel My presence. Sense how close to you I am. Nudge yourself closer. This is not your duty. This is your reward.

Bless yourself to My care. Bless the world and your daily events to Me. Bless all whom you meet today with your recollection of Me. You manage to find a way to carry your cell phone with you constantly. Can you not carry Me? Take a call from Me every now and then. Listen to My voice. Listen to My love. Wherever you are, you can hear Me. Whatever you are in the midst of, take a moment for Me. Take a moment for the love in your heart.

Designate something to remind you of Me. Perhaps a rose. Every time you see one or think of a rose, accept My smile. Maybe every new sound that you hear, everything you see is a signal of Me. Maybe everything is a signal of God when you remember Me.

God first.

This is not from My ego, for I have none.

This is setting you straight.

What is first comes first. Anything else is faking it. Only Truth satisfies.

Satiate yourself with Me.

I cannot do it for you, though I do everything else.

That is the free choice of which you are made.

You can make anything first that you choose.

You can make anything last as you choose.

And you have chosen illusion over Me.

You have put everything else first.

Think a little of Me.

Cast Me a role in your life.

Acknowledge My role in your life.

Acknowledge My love.

Let My love be the plank in your eye.

I offer you My vision.

Take it.

What more could you want?

What less do you?

You have one choice. All or some.

Choose All.

Choose something.

Stop letting choices choose you.

Stop being by default.

You have your life to choose today. You can make it what you will. You can make it great or small or in between. Life is a choice you make. It is not, contrary to popular opinion, something foisted on you. You pick it. You may pick it out of a hat, but you are the one who picks it.

Choose number one. That is your lucky number. It stands for the One of Us.

Associate yourself with Me. Is that too much to do for happiness?

You who give yourself over to so many things need only give yourself over to Me. Tip your hat to Me. Offer Me your hand. Accept Mine. Just look at Me for a moment. Let Me look into your eyes, for love is there. Love is there when you look at Me. There is nothing you can see but love when you look at Me.

Come, it is time for you to know love. Not what has passed for love, but love. Love that is a tending, a leaning. Love is not a yearning. Love is a receiving from the One Who created you. Once you accept My proffered love, you can only give it as radiance from the One Who gave it to you.

Of yourself, you cannot possess love. But you can have all of Mine. I give it to you gladly. I can do nothing else but give you My love, for My love was made for you. Thus, you are My love, made for reception of My love. When you acknowledge the receipt of My love, then you know your rightful place as a Giver of God's Love. No longer are you loveless.

Will you accept My love? Will you honor Me with your acceptance? Will you accept the Gift that goes to you from the Giver of All to all? You are the only one who can exclude yourself. I include. I welcome. I persist. I maintain. I follow you wherever you go, and I offer you Myself. I am the Love I offer you. What am I if not love? And what are you if not My love?

You are My love.

I love you. No matter what you do, My love is intact. There is no withholding of My love. Only you can refuse it.

You who are made of My love can refuse to accept it.

This one thing, your little willingness to accept My love, will turn the world on its axis. And it will certainly turn you. It will turn you to Heaven. You will look up, and My love will cover your face like mist, and your eyes will be gentled with love.

Give Me your eyes so that I may look out through them. You will begin to see the world as I do, and you will begin to be as I am. And you will know the Power and the Glory of God, and you will become a giver of the Glory of God from the light in your eyes. Wherever your eyes look, they will be placing My light, My light that was given to you to shine. Shine My light. Accept it first. Then shine it. And it falls on yourselves, My dear children. It falls on yourselves.

If you but saw clearly what is right here, how easy life would be! If you but saw only what was immediately in front of you, uncolored by the past, how clearly you would see! But the mind behind your eyes does calculations and totals up figures from the past.

It is as if the mind asks in every situation, without calling it to your attention: "What from the past is present now? What shadows appear here?"

And so you do not always see what is present. You see last night's leftovers. You see a transparent overlay clinging to the present.

Clear your mind of interpretations of the past. When you interpret, instead of seeing, you are remembering. Instead of living, you are computing. Be not a robot who follows only programming and knows not of first time.

Let all be first-time for you now.

Be the sun that peeks over the horizon without prejudice, without accumulation of past impressions, simply a new sun shining on a world that it sees for the first time every time it comes across it.

What you would see if you could but see untrammeled from visions of the past!

Letting go would be easy if you did not hold on to the past. Living would be much easier for you if you let disenchantment from the past go.

Be enchanted with today.

The truth is that the past exists only in your imagination. Because it exists in others' imaginations as well doesn't verify yours. This wouldn't be the first time that everyone is mistaken.

New is a popular word. Everyone wants new. You pay good money for new. There is a lot of new that matters that you can have free. Clean your eyes.

Newness to life isn't adding anything. It is building on a more accurate premise.

You change the present by letting go of past accumulations of thoughts that are merely opinions. Opinions are meant to change. You have no difficulty liking one detergent today and another tomorrow. If you can change detergents, why not change that in life which keeps you away from where you want to be?

The past was always meant to step out of. Step out of it. Merely leave it behind.

Even only yesterday is too far away from today.

Today let your eyes fall on the day like a new coat of paint. Today your new eyes see what is here, not what they thought must be. Today you see without premeditation. Today you sail a sea you have never sailed on before. Or you see an old sea for the first time. You see from a different angle; therefore, you see for the first time. Perhaps you were upside-down, and today you are right-side-up.

See the surgence of life rather than the resurgence.

Make a new world. Hasten its entry into Heaven.

Your vision is more powerful than you credit it. What you see gets created or recreated. Pay attention to what you see. Do not try to catch the world in a mistake or a crime. Start catching the world in an act of beauty.

Beauty is not far-fetched. Exquisite beauty is the truth of existence. It's just that sometimes My weary children think it is smart to pounce on other alternatives. They often like to catch the world in a misdemeanor.

Today catch the beauty of the world. Catch it and keep it and extend it. All you have to do is note it. Note it instead of all the things you have been noting.

You are the one I have chosen to set the world's vision right by setting your own. Would you deny Me?

Rest in My love, for that is where you lay down your head. Rest your head, for your mind has been overdoing. It has been mining its thoughts and bringing them out and piling them up, looking for gold. Gold is contained in the heart. You have been mining in the wrong vein.

Your heart needs mining, not your mind. Your heart wants its depths plummeted. It wants its essence pulled up to the surface. It has longed for you to attend to it. Stir the bottom of your heart so it is lively once again. You will not find dregs there. You will find unimagined treasures, sunken treasure that will rise to the surface and spread out in wave after wave.

Have you not been digging in the wrong place?

Let your mind come after your heart. Let your heart clear itself. Tell your mind to let your heart be. Your mind has been constricting it. Your mind has imprinted your heart with rules and regulations. Unrestrict your heart. Free your heart like a whale and let it be its own magnificence.

If your heart feels dismal, it is because it has been restricted. Its avenues have been closed, circuits cut. Your heart does not believe in detours or traffic jams. It believes in openness. You have grounded your heart when, all the while, your heart is meant for great heights. Untie your heart.

Let it be a kite that flies. Do not keep it in. Your heart does not belong exclusively to you. You do not own it at all. It is not your dog on a leash or your bird in a cage. Your heart has its own pulse, and its own way. Do not trample it. Your heart has its own being and its own momentum. Your mind is not your heart's keeper. Your heart needs no keeper. Your heart needs only your blessing. Have you been blessing it?

Perhaps you have been cursing it. Perhaps you have battered it around, scolded it, harangued it for being a heart of love. Perhaps you have locked it in a closet. Perhaps you have hidden it beneath other lesser things, saving it for a special day. A heart is not to be saved or secured.

Stop telling your heart what to do and what to feel. Let your heart talk to you. Let your heart dance to the rooftops. It will take you with it. You are meant to fly with your heart. You are not the chariot of your heart. The heart is your chariot. It has no limits. It hurtles through space. It leaps over the stars. It catches the moon. It brings the stars and the moon back to you. It grabs the sun and brings back its great light and warmth. Your heart swivels the universe. Its beat is strong.

And you think to dominate your heart? You can only diminish it.

Your heart is not a bauble. It is a heart of light. It is a unique gem. It is a huge pearl or amethyst strung on love. It is a pendant, your heart. It swings from Heaven. I hold the other end of it.

It is a pendulum. It is perpetual, your heart of love. I never let go of it. You do not rescue your heart. It rescues you.

Do not relegate your heart to be servant of the mind. The mind is a despot. It is tyrannical. It tries to regiment your beautiful heart. It puts a uniform on it. No uniform will fit, for your heart beats and swells and catapults everywhere. No seams can withstand the swelling of your heart. Your heart is seamless. It needs nothing but its own beat and its own story. Listen.

Look through My eyes and see yourself.

I give this message over and over again.

You have been seeing amiss.

Now see aright.

You have put yourself under a microscope.

You belong across the universe and around the sun. Ride the vastness like a camel across the desert. Rise like a kite or a dawning sun. There is a great expanse before you.

Do not particularize yourself so much as you do.

Look at your wholeness. Look for it.

Look more at blessing and less at fault.

Accept that you are blessing. Yes, you are a blessing like a drop of dew on the parched earth.

What did you think you were? Did you think you were a mistake?

You are God's created being, sent to earth for its enrichment. That is what you are on earth for, to reflect Me on earth and so raise its consciousness to Mine. That is the meaning of your life on earth.

How you do it is through deep utter joy, also known as love. Correction doesn't do it for the world. Suggestions don't do it. Rules don't do it. Treaties don't do it. Arguments don't do it. Words don't do it. Being right doesn't do it. Force doesn't do it. Only the joy of love does it.

I set you on earth as My retainer for the world. You are the speaker for Me. You speak with your being, for your voice and words are more interpreted than heard.

In the silence of your heart, you are the speaker for Me. You echo My thought. I have one thing to say, and that is love. And I gave it all to you so that you might also give it away. Give it to the universe. How it needs the attention of your heart!

Don't let your heart fall entirely to Earth, for it is misunderstood there and can be trampled on. Raise your heart to Heaven, and the universe will rise with you. The closer you come to Me, the more you bestow Me upon the earth. Your love is mist that rises. The whole universe takes its cues from you. You are the wielder of the universe.

You do not believe that can be so, yet why would I tell you this if it were not? Listen to the truth in your heart. Can you tell Me then that what I say is not so?

Hear Me once and for all: You are My dispatch on Earth, and it is My message that you give. Emanate My message for the world. Surely you did not think it was your personal wants and ignorance you were to display?

You are a leader of the universe.

It copies you. It copies how you walk. It looks where your eyes go. It looks up or down according to you. What your heart accepts, the world accepts for all. You color world thought. You dim or brighten it, and so you dim or brighten your concept of yourself.

Be a dawning sun upon earth. Don't wait for the earth to shine on you. You are the earth's light. The earth is not there to light you. You are already lit. You are to light the earth. That is so much easier than anything else.

You are a beam of light. And it is My light that you beam. You are a ray from My heart. You are an unending ray of My heart. Your heart is a star that radiates My light so that more of it can be seen.

Heavenletter #816 Published on: January 12, 2003

More meaningful than any advice I give to you is Our Closeness. We rub shoulders, you and I. That We are together means more than anything We say. Words are peripheral. Our engagement is integral. Our rapport engages Us. We are here for each other. That is enough. Our words are only lyrics to Our Great Song. As magnificent as My word is, Our being together is more. We are beyond any meaning We can put on Ourselves, Our One Self.

We do not need words to express what We are to each other.

If there were no words, We would still be Oneness. We are as linked as two peas in a pod, but We are One. We are One doubled. We carry each other's hearts, and We see that there is one heart between Us. Our hearts are One. There is no apartness. Apartness does not exist. We exist.

We trip over each other, We are so eager in Our Oneness, this Oneness of Stillness. But there is no falling. You cannot fall from grace. You can only lose your awareness of it. I am never ever willing to part with you. I cannot. From the first moment of Our existence, I was inalterably committed to you. I am committed to you, all of you, all of the imagined rays of My Oneness.

You are a reflection of Me. That is My commitment. It is what it is. I would not change it even if I could. Why would I? What could I replace you with? You are all that I am. It is said that I am your Keeper, but, in truth, We keep each other. I am just more aware of My responsibility to you. My responsibility to you is another name for My love. I know how to love. I cannot do otherwise for I cannot be otherwise. Nor can you really.

You can play a game that you are something other than love. You can play it so well that you come to believe it. And other reflections of Me also come to believe it. So much for beliefs! How mistaken they can be!

I have thrown Myself into the world, and I appear as you. I am All That There Is. There is not even you. You are not a separate entity. Love is One. All your capers are a frivolous game you play. Deep within, you know it is sport. Deep within, you know the Elysian Fields you live in. Anything else is distortion. The world is distorted. You thought Paradise was turned into something else. You thought Heaven was far from you. You thought you were stuck somewhere. You are stuck in your thinking and your vision and your lack of regard for All That You Are.

Because you are One with Me, there is no one to compare yourself to, yet you have been doing that right along. Your assumptions and judgments do not stand you in good stead. They put you where you are not. They put someone else where they are not. When you see less than My light, you are not seeing. In reality, what can My light be compared to? And if you are My light, which you are, then what is there to compare to what? You can only compare one illusion to another. It is illusion that one is mightier than another. It is illusion that one of My rays is preferred and another is less preferred. It is illusion beyond illusion that can fantasize that I prefer another over you, or you over another. All the while, there is no other. Do you see how you take your games as gospel?

Wherever I look, I see Myself. That is because I see Truth. Anything less than Truth is not. It doesn't exist. You exist, and I exist, and We are indivisible.

Consider the course of your life a rainbow that you walk on. A rainbow is a circle. However, only one half of it is visible across the sky. All the while, a rainbow is supported by the other unseen half of itself. Perhaps a rainbow revolves itself. If that is the case, you have seen all of it at one time or another.

But not even one arc of a rainbow is always visible to you. Most days it is not. Rainbows, even the thought of rainbows, stir your heart with a faintly-remembered reality. When the world is distraught, when you are in despair or saddened, pull down a ribbon of rainbow into your heart. Take all of its colors close to you. Rainbows are meant to exalt you. That is to say, to restore you to yourself.

Look for rainbows often, for they are a signal to you of great things to come. You will be pleased to know, whether it is visible or not, rainbow light radiates. It radiates everywhere.

It radiates within you. All you have to do is bring it out. The stirrings of your heart are the stirrings of these colors. These filaments of light refracted are the contents of your heart. These filaments of light are what you are made of. You are that beautiful light.

You love a rainbow so much because you recognize yourself in it. A rainbow reminds you of your connection to it and all of humanity. Imagine, One Light refracted in so many beautiful ways.

And, so, light walks on light. This is the story of Creation. And what a creation it is. What a God am I Who created so much beauty! How did I tie light in so many ways as to create such magnitude and variety of beauty? I breathed My breath, and I breathed life into light.

The stars are no more My light than you. All the light of Heaven is within you. The light of Heaven is not different from the light on earth. The difference is how well the light is magnified. In Heaven, no light is kept to itself. All the light of Heaven is out in the open and revealed. None of Heaven's light is withheld, yet all the light on earth is not revealed. Yet My light is meant to be seen everywhere.

Let your light sparkle. Don't wait for later. Don't wait for sometime. Don't wait for a more auspicious time. Right now is auspicious.

Do not be shy. Do not hesitate about showing your light. Certainly do not apologize for it. Why would I bestow My light on you unless it was for you to shine?

Have you been waiting for permission? Well, then, you have it. You have carte-blanche. Shine My light to beat the band. If you think you don't know how to shine My light, then blink it! Many blinks of My light will make a great light for all to see. You will see.

Heavenletter #25 Published on: December 8, 2000

What will you this morning? My Will or thy will?

You want My Will. You want to know My Will. You want to know My Will for you.

Now it is time to want just My Will, not for a particular, but for the universality of its truth.

You were a young child who had to stay in his yard. Now you are allowed out. Now you have no fence to keep you in. Now the whole universe is yours to walk on.

You walk out of your yard, and you find you have entered a new land where you walk, stop, and look at everything, and everything you see has a glow, a brightness that keeps you looking. You are like an immigrant just off the boat and amazed at what the New World offers.

The street signs everywhere in this wondrous place say, God's Will. Whichever turn you take, there it is, God's Will before you. You think you have to reach it, and yet it is always ahead of you. Yes, God's Will is ahead of you.

After a while, you realize that the signs that say God's Will are not pointing you in a direction so much as they are telling you where you are.

You are in God's Will. The Will you seek is lying within you.

Ask yourself, "What does God want?" What God wants is God's Will.

No longer do you ask, "What is God's Will for me?"

That is outdated.

God's Will and God's Will for you are the same.

You have waited to know, "Should I do this or should I do that?", for you have wanted to be aligned with God's Will. Now you have a standard.

God's Will is peace, joy, love, promulgated upon a land often seen as a desert. Ask yourself, "Do I bring God's rain to the desert? Am I giving God's peace, joy, and love to this desert land? Am I bringing a particle more of God to this apparent desert?"

Now you walk in a new golden land where all you can bring is God's light. You are no longer capable of rehashing the old issues. You can't even remember what they were.

When you step out of a lotus-filled lake, you step out clean with the scent of the lotus flowers upon you. You shake the golden water around you. Without effort, you bring the clarity of the lake to the dry land.

You do not see dry land any longer because you are wet with the glorious moisture of the lake.

When you step out of this lake, your vision is not the same. You do not look at yourself so much. You are intent on following the Sun, and so you walk toward the Sun and you do not ask, "Where am I going?", for you know you walk toward the Sun. The Sun attracts you. You go to it. That is God's Will.

Knowing God's Will is not an accomplishment. Knowing God's Will is following it. One foot after the other, you walk to God's Light. Walking toward God's Light is following God's Will.

You swim into God's Light and you walk on God's Land, and your discovery is that you are God's Will. Ordinary you.

You are God's Will. God willed you into being. He blew breath into you, and He gave you the Garden of Eden. You are in it now. All is here for you. God is here for you. All the grapes are here and the moisture of the Lake. All that is before you is God's. You join God's Will by recognizing that God has a Will and God lets His Will be known to you.

Today as you follow God, even if you don't know where you are going, know that God does know, that God takes your hand, and He pulls you out into an adventure of His Light right where you are, right now, reading His words and accepting His love for you, for that is His Will.

Here is a thought that you are ready to change: "Into each life a little rain must fall." Have you not believed that? Why do you believe that? Why must you believe that? What reason justifies that kind of thinking on the part of a child of God?

If rain does fall, you do not have to protest it or bemoan it, but why conjure the thought of it ahead of time? Why be a so-called realist whom life can prove right? Why continue to be a small thinker who predicts the past? Why not be a big thinker whom life can also prove right? Or, why prove anything at all? Better to just live life.

There are other songs in life that you can hum: "Everything is going my way" is one. Now, that can be heard on more than one level. The truth is that everything is going the way you think, but not necessarily the way you want. You have been living your way. You have been predicting your way. Perhaps you now want to elevate your way. To do that, find new ways of looking at things. Change your thoughts.

You have great purpose in life. Your life is not small. It is not infinitesimal. It is not a fraction. It is not a portion. Your life is life itself. It is not for later, and it is not for what has been. It is for now. What are you presupposing for now?

Come, wade in the water. Do not plan it. Just know it is glorious. It is deep enough. And it cannot be too deep for one such as you.

Do not think that you need to learn to swim ahead of time. Do not think that you need any preparation at all. Do not think you need to prepare yourself for life as if girding yourself for battle.

Treat life as a friend you trust. Treat your life as you would Me. Treat life as a treat from a dear friend. Treat life like a wonderful surprise you are opening up. Treat life like a letter you open, knowing that it holds good news. Or treat life like a letter you are writing with a heart full of love.

Consider how you look at life, and then you will know how you treat it.

You have often considered how life is treating you. But life answers your invitations.

You have heard that you create your life, but you haven't believed it. You have thought you were life's bauble to be tossed here and there at an anonymous random whim. But your life is not random. You are making it.

The evaluation of your life is not in its touted successes. It is in your contentment. What are your thoughts about your life? Therein lies the story of your life. Worry less about it. Contain more of it in your heart.

You have been waiting for life to appear, but life is here right now. This moment is life. It is yours.

When you read My words, you have moments of contentment. You feel yourself surging forth. You begin to rise to your own level. Keep rising. Don't stop. Absorb life the way you do My words. There is meaning here for you in every step of life on earth. There are messages, and there is Good Will.

It is not that you must get out of yourself in order to live life. Discover more of yourself. You have untapped resources. There is a lot more to you than you have let yourself see. You have more of yourself to see and more of yourself to express. Express yourself along the path of your life. Do not wait for life to find you or come to you. Do not wait for later. Commit to life now.

Your search for Me has been a wandering from Me.

You leapt at chances and overlooked the certainty.

You followed flute songs that weren't yours.

Follow Mine.

Follow yours.

This is not to say that there is not value in every song. There is. But your heart is not satisfied until you find the tune your own ears hear.

"Have no other Gods before Me" means: Have Me yourself. I am personal to everyone. I am personal to you. I am multi-dimensional. I am the same God. There is no other, but each has to find Me simply within himself. I am your God, and I yearn to be found.

As you hear Me speak these words right now, you are hearing Me for yourself. It is you who hears. It is you who listens. You hear a recording as it were, an authentic recording that you can replay, and yet it is firsthand. In this recording, I speak to you. You do know that. You hear it in the tenor of My voice. You know Our intimacy. You know to whom I speak. I speak to you. Your hearing is part of My voice. We are a two-way mechanism. But I never say, "Over and out."

I never stop whispering My words of love to you. Of course, My words are more than whispers. My words are Truth, so My words more than speak to you. They embrace you. They wrap you in themselves. They charge you up. My words stroke you, but My words are more than strokes. My words give you the essence of what is spoken of. My words are deliverers to you. They give you the real goods. They are the real goods.

My voice without your hearing is not uncommon. That has been going on for quite some time. But now you pick up My impulses within your heart. Now you begin to hear Me, and what a revelation that is. Your God speaks to you. You hear the echoes of My speech within you. You are the receiver. You are the one who picks Me out. You are the chooser of My words. You are the doorman. You, who have kept Me out, now, let Me in.

In the past, you have sometimes let Me in. Rather, I should say, I sneaked past you. You let Me in, but you were not aware of Whom you let in. Perhaps you don't even remember that you did. Perhaps I climbed over the fence or crept under it, but the point is I got in. Even then, I was no stranger to you.

You can only hear My words firsthand. What I mean is that My words enter you, else you would not hear them. Eyes might read, but hearts would not hear. Will you now agree that you hear My voice? Will you now agree that it is I Who speaks to you, that it is My voice you hear, and My voice that stirs your heart? Will you now agree that your heart is stirred? Does not My voice stir you? I move something in you, and you are stirred. And you want to be stirred more.

You are glad to know that you are cream, but now you want to be cream whipped into butter.

You want your purpose.

Long have you wanted to know your purpose.

Your purpose is not in an item.

Your purpose is with Me.

There, I have told you.

I am your purpose. And you are Mine.

I propose that We link together in Our Oneness and fulfill Our purpose. My purpose is fulfilled through you. And your purpose is fulfilled through Me. This is how intimate We are. This is true knowledge. It is yours to keep. I gave it to you. Once heard, it is kept. Your heart keeps it safe deep within itself.