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You are sentimental, but I am not. Sentiment is too small. Memories are filled with sentiment. Go beyond memories and sentiment. There is a larger field for you to roam in.

Wishes, which do not see far enough, are too short and come from sentiment also. Sentiment is a kind of longing, a longing you try to fill by popping a memory or a meager wish into your mouth. Memories are not long. They may go far back, but they are not long.

No need to hold on to your memories. Your memories are not love. They are remembered pictures that conjure up feelings. The feelings may be sweet, but it is not sweet to long for the past. It is idleness; the past and its feelings cannot return. Only ghosts of the past can appear; you know you cannot recapture. You are left bereft, and you feel sad. You cannot stay in the same place. You must walk on.

Let memories and sentiments go. Your mind and heart belong on greater than those.

Wishing is made of idle dreams as well. You wish for a sensation. You wish for something ahead of you to bring something to you. Wishes are ghosts as well, just focused on a different screen.

But there is real life before you. There are deep desires to be filled, and there are deep truths for you to discover. Let go of the past, and you will make new discoveries.

The past weighs you down. The past is made of thoughts when you were a hero or were loved or did love, but love cannot stay in the past. Love has to move. Be glad you had moments worth remembering, and let them go, because what is ahead of you is greater. And as soon as you reach that new banner, leave it, and race to the next one. Do not hurry, but race just the same. You race to the present. Drop the past, drop the future, and you are in the present. The present is the stronghold of your life. It is where your treasures lie.

I have recruited you to the present. The present is where you line up and are rewarded. The present is where you give rewards as well.

How happy you are when you let go of the past and of the future! When you have one foot behind and another ahead and are not where you are, where does that leave you?

Enter the land of the present. When you stay in one place on pavement, your feet may stick to the tar. When you jump ahead, your feet may stick even more. The present is secure. Past and future are not. They are naught. They do not even exist.

Only you and I exist, and We exist in this moment. This moment has become a bandied term, but it is the now of Us. It is Our embrace. It is Our enfoldment and unfoldment. In this moment are We. We do not have to hold on to it because there is always more of you and of Me, and Our Oneness of Being.

You can only be with Me. In our being We have permanence. Permanence is what you seek. Permanence is not staying the same on earth.

The permanence you seek is infinity, and infinity is the path you walk on. It has a firmness beyond the world's firmness. It has a stability that is God-made. What you consider solid is not. It is only illusion.

Come to the reality of Our Oneness which exists in this preciousness between Us, and it is here right now for you. I am here. I am here. And you are here. This sacred moment right now is infinity, and it is Ours.

Heavenletter #441 Published on: January 5, 2002

When you feel My love, it is for you. And it is for everyone. That is one reason why you can feel My love so much at the times you do because My love is full. It is not dissipated. It reaches everywhere, and so, wherever it reaches, it is expanded. It bounces off itself.

You cannot have more of My love, for you have it all. If My love were sequestered for you alone, you would not have more. You would have less. And that is how love is. It belongs to no one. It belongs to everyone.

A way for you to begin is to know that you are a gift to the universe. You are not a burden. You have thought you were extraneous to the universe. You thought you were nonessential. You thought you were a weight, and therefore you felt the world as a weight.

Come to accept that you are a gift. You are My gift I gave to the universe. I created you because you were to be created, and because it filled My heart to create you. I chose to create you, and yet I had no choice because My heart is so full of creation.

And, so, I created you as a blessing. Only you have forgotten who you are, and you have thought yourself something else, something less.

It is important that you begin to know your worth because without your sense of worth, you are diminished, and your love is squashed. That is how, when you love yourself more, you can give more love to others. You can unwrap your love, as it were, and swing it everywhere.

You may have thought of yourself as unworthy to give love. You may have thought you were intruding or stepping out of bounds. Indeed, when you give love, you are stepping out of the bounds that you have restricted yourself with.

You need no permission to love. You need no special set of circumstances. You need only to come to know your love and let it out. You can even let it out without knowing its vastness.

Today let out a tiny bit more love for yourself. Truly, you cannot wait for the world to send love to you. So send you love to the world. It needs it just as much as you.

Stop looking at what is wrong with the world and what is wrong with you. The same thing is wrong. There is an incomplete picture. And you have adhered to the incompleteness.

You have not believed there is more to you than the eye sees. You have not tried to fill in the blanks because you thought there wasn't any more to you or to life on earth. You have even thought there is only transparent life on earth. You have thought you were wasting your time here, this time that you are told does not exist.

But you exist. Know that you do, and that there is not only room for you but need for you. You are a requirement on earth.

Begin to know yourself as a gift, and then you will begin to see better and give a lot and receive a lot.

Give something today that you have never given before or given to a particular individual before or given a thought to. Yes, give a thought to something today that you never thought about before. Open up the lid of your mind, and let your heart expand in all directions in the love it was born to. Divulge your love, especially to yourself, and see what happens to the gifts I have placed upon earth.

Will you take responsibility for your own anger? If you are feeling angry, it is your own anger, isn't it? Someone or something sparked it, but it belongs to you. It arises from out of yourself, not from an outside vendor.

If there were not ego, would there be need to offend or be offended? If there were not selfishness, would anger roar? Being angry and speaking out are not the same. If someone has offended you, you do not have to abrogate your rights. You don't have to love the perceived insult. You can take care of it, or perhaps you can try to and perhaps not succeed, or perhaps you walk away, keeping the thorn in your side.

But the being angry or not being angry is within your realm. Anger often wins, overt or inverted. Anger may lash out, but anger also smolders, and it is in you that it burns. It is steam rising. What is inside you that you need anger to get it out?

If anger is so uncomfortable, why must you have it?

If someone has affronted you, isn't that enough? Must you castigate yourself with anger as well?

Anger is not apart from you. It erupts from you. How is it that you are so good at being angry? Even a little offense will get your blood boiling. How does anger arise so effortlessly when you have to tug and pull and haul love out? Love is the greatest energy in the world, and yet you have allowed anger to beat love so easily. Why is anger more fluent than love?

Perhaps you are ready for anger, prepped for it, and not so hasty to accept the presence of love. You are quick to spot offense and slow to see love. You look for offense. Your fists are ready. But love you do not believe in quite so readily, and your heart is reluctant to let it in and to give it out. A heart closed cannot be closed in only one direction.

When I say to look for love, I do not mean to be watchful of love coming to you or your needing a demonstration of it. I mean to be as quick to spot love as you are offense. The love you see does not have to be coming in your direction. You can see it wherever it is, to or from. Keep your eye on love, and you may not be so quick to hear offense, let alone take it.

You feel anger when you feel you have been disregarded. And what is this regard that you seem to require so much? What does it mean, after all, how much someone considers you? How much do you have to be considered? Must someone always hold a door open for you or conduct themselves in a manner befitting to you?

Do people come around you to suit you? Is that their purpose? Why do you have to be suited? Truly, if people came around you and tried only to suit you, you wouldn't like that either; you would tire of it, so how people suit you or not suit you isn't so important as you have been thinking it is.

In the big picture, what do respect and disrespect have to do with you? Respect and disrespect are little things, and little things do not have to ruffle your feathers.

Be respectful to others' needs, and your anger will vanish. You have bigger things to do than to be angry. Distill anger. Do not foment it. Anger is not your right. It is your mistake. You can do without anger. You can do better without anger. You can do better than anger.

Try sense of humor instead.

You try to determine your future and the future of everything. There is enough for you to do with right now without that. You are always saying how much you have to do, and yet you take on the future. You carry it with you like a dark cloak that weighs heavily on you or like a hovering black vulture that pursues you.

Ensure your future with this moment right now. This moment right now — look upon it with wonder. Look upon this gift of this moment as the treasure that it truly is. It is not a treasure because it will never come back again, as it is said. No, it is a treasure because it never leaves you! And it is a blessing in your hand.

When I say this moment never leaves you, this does not mean it is your past to carry. It means that it becomes a part of you — your genes, if you will, your make-up, your physical and non-physical constituency. This moment is like the food you eat, the air you breathe, the water you drink.

This moment sculptures you in a freeze frame of a movie, and it leads to the next frame. Just as you lift your foot to walk, in the next moment, your foot comes down. The preceding affects the ensuing. The ensuing follows the preceding.

In this moment you set something in motion. What are you going to set in motion? Fear? Dread? Anxiety? How about joy and delight? The very presence of joy and delight prevent you from thinking of the future, and, so, in the moment you enact your future very well. When you are in joy, you are fully in your present moment. That is clear, isn't it? Don't ask Me how you get to be fully in the present moment. I am telling you. Have joy in it. That is what it is for.

Feel joy in your limbs. Feel joy in your eyes and what they see. Let them see something. Look out the window. Look at the light on the leaves and love this moment of light on the leaves. Love the leaves. Love the light. Love the shadows of darkness that reveal the light. Love the tree without leaves. Love the blue of the sky and the green of the grass. Love gray skies and clouds and the rain and the snow and the yellow sun.

Will not for the cool of winter now while you have the hot of summer.

Will not for anything that you do not see before you this moment. Do not fear it either.

This moment of opportunity that is before you — don't skip over it. It is your moment.

You can decide ahead of time that you will look at this moment and whatever it brings you with dispassionate love, for it is your moment of a time with Me. I am with you. Perhaps this moment is not dressed the way you thought it should be. Perhaps you don't notice Me because you do not see My holy blazing light. But this moment of right now, I am before you in all My glory, and My eyes gaze into yours with perfect light. Look into My eyes, and all the cloaks and all the vultures must dispatch themselves. They cannot stay or enter where Our eyes meet. They cannot stay or enter when Our eyes meet.

Our eyes see through everything.

Capture this moment, and you will not be stuck in it. You will go for more.

This moment is a brief firefly. It is gone before you know it. Know this moment, and it will carry you in triumph on its shoulders into the next moment which will also carry you to the next as a royal porter carries a treasured find gently.

Heavenletter #273 Published on: July 29, 2001

You try to determine your future and the future of everything. There is enough for you to do with right now without that. You are always saying how much you have to do, and yet you take on the future. You carry it with you like a dark cloak that weighs heavily on you or like a hovering black vulture that pursues you.

Ensure your future with this moment right now. This moment right now — look upon it with wonder. Look upon this gift of this moment as the treasure that it truly is. It is not a treasure because it will never come back again, as it is said. No, it is a treasure because it never leaves you! And it is a blessing in your hand.

When I say this moment never leaves you, this does not mean it is your past to carry. It means that it becomes a part of you — your genes, if you will, your make-up, your physical and non-physical constituency. This moment is like the food you eat, the air you breathe, the water you drink.

This moment sculptures you in a freeze frame of a movie, and it leads to the next frame. Just as you lift your foot to walk, in the next moment, your foot comes down. The preceding affects the ensuing. The ensuing follows the preceding.

In this moment you set something in motion. What are you going to set in motion? Fear? Dread? Anxiety? How about joy and delight? The very presence of joy and delight prevent you from thinking of the future, and, so, in the moment you enact your future very well. When you are in joy, you are fully in your present moment. That is clear, isn't it? Don't ask Me how you get to be fully in the present moment. I am telling you. Have joy in it. That is what it is for.

Feel joy in your limbs. Feel joy in your eyes and what they see. Let them see something. Look out the window. Look at the light on the leaves and love this moment of light on the leaves. Love the leaves. Love the light. Love the shadows of darkness that reveal the light. Love the tree without leaves. Love the blue of the sky and the green of the grass. Love gray skies and clouds and the rain and the snow and the yellow sun.

Will not for the cool of winter now while you have the hot of summer.

Will not for anything that you do not see before you this moment. Do not fear it either.

This moment of opportunity that is before you — don't skip over it. It is your moment.

You can decide ahead of time that you will look at this moment and whatever it brings you with dispassionate love, for it is your moment of a time with Me. I am with you. Perhaps this moment is not dressed the way you thought it should be. Perhaps you don't notice Me because you do not see My holy blazing light. But this moment of right now, I am before you in all My glory, and My eyes gaze into yours with perfect light. Look into My eyes, and all the cloaks and all the vultures must dispatch themselves. They cannot stay or enter where Our eyes meet. They cannot stay or enter when Our eyes meet.

Our eyes see through everything.

Capture this moment, and you will not be stuck in it. You will go for more.

This moment is a brief firefly. It is gone before you know it. Know this moment, and it will carry you in triumph on its shoulders into the next moment which will also carry you to the next as a royal porter carries a treasured find gently.

Heavenletter #736 Published on: October 28, 2002

Consider that you have arrived at a train station. Now what train do you catch? Where do you go from here? Perhaps back to where you started, and that is with Me. Whatever the name of the station you choose and set out for, it is to Me. I am your point of departure, and I am also your arrival. And I am the train you catch. I am catchable. And you don't really even have to chase after Me. I am the bird in hand.

I am the One who sends you off, and I am the One Who greets you. I am here at every turn. There is no where else I can be but with you. But you can be a million places — you can think you are a million other places — but there is only one place to be. That's with Me, and you are already here with Me if you but knew.

When you wake in the morning, you wake to Me. When you open your eyes, I am what you see — at least I am what you can think of and what you can know. I am before you. I rouse you. Even when you wake dreary-eyed, I am before you. You will never catch Me unawares. I am always deeply aware of you. You are on My mind, and you are in My heart, and that is all there is. That is not less than you expect. It is the More.

There is nowhere where I am not. There is no field of life without Me. There is no life without Me. The impossibility is to be without Me. That is the one impossibility I will own to. It is impossible, and it is inconceivable.

There never was a time when I was not, and there is no time where I am. Time does not exist.

I am not in your imagination. I am the very substance of you. You roll around on My chest, and you think you are somewhere else. You think I am manufactured, or I am an idea that somehow caught on, and that I don't belong everywhere, as if I could not be everywhere (as if there is an everywhere any more than there is a time). I do not fill up space. I do not take time. Yet I am All.

You are My love manifested, and so it seems to you that you are outside Me, when all the while, you are internal to Me, and I am internal to you. You are My identity, as I am yours. You have great responsibility, and you have none. What you have is great placement in My heart. We can say that you are the beat of My heart. You are My impulses going out. You are My impulses of love thinking they seek themselves, but it is return to My heart in your awareness that you seek.

You have not lost Me. I cannot be lost. But you seek your thought of Me. You long to grasp Me. You do not lose yourself in Me. You find yourself with Me, because I am where you are located. If you are anywhere, you are with Me. And you are somewhere indeed. Where and place are metaphors for the only thing there is. Anything placed outside Me in thought is a metaphor. I am the only Non-Metaphor there is or can be.

I am the Sum of It All. Yet there is nothing to add up. All is complete. You are complete, and you are completely with Me, as I am with you. There is no alternative. You might as well get on with it — this exploration called life — for you stir My heart.

Heavenletter #974 Published on: June 22, 2003

Losing ego is distancing yourself from what you used to think you were. It may feel like losing your identity, but losing a false identity isn't losing anything at all. How hard can it be to lose that which isn't yours in the first place? Ego is like a forged passport. Only you take it as actuality. The photograph on your passport is not you either, for a true photo of you would be all shining light.

That which you take personally is ego, be it praise up or rejection down. The greatness of you can never be made to feel small. Nor can the greatness of you be made to feel bigger than its truth.

When you have a delicious apple in front of you to eat, it is an apple in all its glory, just as it is. What needs to be added to it to make it more of an apple? The apple shines with or without appreciation.

That which is to swell you is love. And that is exactly what love does, for love expands the nonexistent boundaries very well. Love knows it does not fit between lines.

Love swells the heart in all directions. Love escapes the Human heart and swells the universe. Love bursts itself and is a reburst of love. Love extends itself, and that is what it has been doing. Love never stopped. There never was a moment anywhere anytime where love did not exist. Love does not depend upon anything in order to be what it is.

But ego depends on everything for its pseudo-existence.

Seek another identity. Seek one that suits you better. Seek one that is true.

Beware of false advertising, most particularly about yourself. Do not be so easily convinced that ego builds you. Ego is a magician's trick that takes your attention off truth. Ego is not preferable. You pay dearly for your ego.

Ego gives you a sense of greatness that is appalling next to your true greatness. You are the child who thinks a nickel is worth more than a dime. Ego cheats you time and time again. Ego is the drug-dealer who gets you coming back for more. Ego knows that it will never satisfy you, but what does a racketeer care so long as it perpetrates itself. Ego has convinced you that you need it to tell you who you are when it blaringly tells you what you are not. Slippery is ego.

Ego is a fox. It tricks you, and each time it lights you up one amp. What is one amp next to the Sun?

Do not think I pick on you when I pick on ego. Do not defend ego. Ego has nothing to do with you except as you take it at its word. Ego's word means nothing. Ego is a charlatan that deals in charlatanism. Ego cannot make a fool of you because who you really are is beyond ego, but ego does trick you when you fall for it.

Ego makes great promises. Ego lives on the promises its gives. It gets its hooks into you, and you feel bound. You feel guilty to drop ego. Guilt is one of its trips. Ego bobbles you. As ego gets your attention onto the surface of life, it cagily keeps your attention off Truth.

Ego, this master of deception, can offer you only costumes, but how it makes you crave these costumes. What ego makes of you even becomes more important than what you are.

Extol ego no longer. Extol love instead.

Heavenletter #267 Published on: July 23, 2001

The pain in your heart is your heart's knowing that it has cheated itself. Pain in your heart is your heart's knowing that you are meant for more than you have allowed. Even your ego knows that you are far more than you have pretended to be.

A disguise is not comfortable, or not comfortable for long.

If you were your plain self, you would be lighthearted.

You think you have to be a certain way, and you think others do too, and so a cycle revolves.

When you are riding on a bike path that is not comfortable for you, it is not momentous for you to take another path. When the road you have chosen to go on seems to be a drawback, you simply leave it. You take another turn.

You have to let go of something in order to take another turn. You cannot hold on to one path and go on another.

You wonder how you can choose and be letting go at the same time. You have to let go of something in order to make a choice other than the one you have made. Perhaps you thought the road you were on was faster, or sweeter, or it seemed the road everyone was taking, and you hesitated to go off from the beaten path. Perhaps you have to let go of hesitation. Most assuredly, you have fear to let go of. There is something you have to let go of.

And there is something you will want to get a hold of, and that is your Creator Who stands before you. My eyes rest on you, and I bet on you that you will fulfill My vision.

You are a visionary because you are My vision. Whose vast vision can you have if not Mine? Avail yourself of Mine. Believe in Me a little bit.

A little bit will take you far.

You know how much a kind word from another has changed you. You know how it made your shoulders go back and your blood flow. A single phrase surged through your heart and lifted your head higher.

Perhaps a teacher acknowledged you.

Perhaps someone looked into your eyes, and saw something that you had not dared look at, and so you looked away. If you see less than My greatness within you, you have looked away. You have had a blind spot that obscured your vision, and you have held on to that blind spot.

When someone's soul touches you, when your souls reach one another, something happens. At the moment of meeting, something has transpired. It has already transpired or you would not have seen one another in this new light. Each of you has lifted to a higher plane. A higher plane is only a higher plan that has come into your view.

A flicker of truth has been acknowledged.

If you recognized your heart in another often, you would often be in Truth. If you recognized another always, you would always be in Truth. Then you would be Christ.

Christ saw the Truth. When he looked at a leper, he saw Truth. When he looked at his executioners, he also saw Truth. Less could have been seen, but he could not.

You can see beyond the obvious. The obvious is nothing at all. What lies beyond the obvious is everything. You know by now that it is essential to see in a new light.

Life offers you what you see. If you keep seeing what you have always seen, you will see what you have always seen. Slip out of your past vision. Just a little more light, and you will see. Today you will see past the physical and into a flame of light I keep glowing in your heart. It is your own heart in another you will see, or your own soul, and along with it, your knowledge of your way to Me.

Heavenletter #751 Published on: November 11, 2002

Love by its very nature is generous. Love given stintingly is not love, for love has no measure. No teaspoons. No buckets. Nothing can contain it. Love knows no bounds, and it overflows all of them. Love fills the entire universe. Love knows only itself, and everything is itself. I know you. I know you better than anyone knows you. Others only guess. I know. I see you fundamentally. All the cover-up's vanish in My eyes. I see the truth of you. You rise in My Truth.

You spend much of life trying to fill in what you see as gaps within yourself. Let gaps be. You do not need to become everything — you already are everything. The gaps serve. They are a continuation of you. Just as there are spaces between houses, there are pauses within you. You are only supposed to be you, a conglomeration of love. All the nodes and valleys are you.

The world asks everything of you. The world wants you to excel in math and sciences and in language and literature. I want you to excel as a Human being, My child on earth, given to earth to reveal the tremendousness of life. There is a tide of life, and you are on it, and you are it. You are a force on earth. You are an inter-related species. Inter-galactic, inter-love species.

You are not only on a path of love. You are the path of love.

All of My children are street signs pointing to the stars of Heaven.

That is all you can do is point. You are the one who shows the way. You are a way-shower.

Why on earth would you point anyone in any other direction?

Does that scare you? Do you feel great responsibility and great inability? Your path is not responsibility. Your path is love.

In order to love, all you have to do is to take away those shreds and remnants of everything else and toss them out to sea. All those ragtails of resentment and hurts and all the unanswered questions, disband them. Who needs answers to questions when immersed in love?

Answers to questions are will o' the wisps because one question leads to another. But love answers itself.

Love is an orbit, and you are on it.

Love is your purpose and your destiny and your source.

You are it, all wrapped in one.

You are My divine purpose.

That is not responsibility, but blessing.

Is it not a blessing that you have legs to walk?

Is it not a blessing that you have a soul to yearn? What is yearning but leaning in a direction. The direction you lean in is Heaven. Heaven pulls you to it. It is inevitable that you will know Heaven. Whatever you have known up to this point, you are headed toward Heaven. You might as well concede. You have tried not conceding, haven't you?

Know your direction, and then it is easy to go there. There is nothing hard about it. It's just where you are going, and it is, in truth, just where you have been all along.

You believed in all the features along the way. You have let the past convey you when it is you who must convey yourself.

Love yourself means to know yourself, not the fallacies of yourself, not your failings, not your disappointments, but the beating heart of you. What but love keeps you alive? Anything else deters you.

Love is the fuel of life. There is no other. All else is naught.

Add to the world's unlimited share.

I am your witness.

I am a friendly witness.

I am the Eyes of the Beholder.

And I witness truth.

And you witness Me. Not one among you does not witness Me. You have a sense of Me. You have an idea of Me. Make your idea be a true one. But whatever your idea of Me, you do have an idea of Me.

Make Me your seventh sense.

Call Me a sense of love.

Is not love a sense?

And does not love make sense?

And does not love travel fast?

Love and light travel at the same speed. Actually, love is faster.

At this instant you have all My love. You are never lacking My love. But sometimes you lack the sense of it. A sense of Me is a habit, and habits are learned.

Learn a new habit. Become accustomed to Me. Get familiar with Me. Get comfortable with Me. I am a Friend. I am your Best Friend. Consider Me your Backer. Consider Me your spine, for it is I Who indeed does hold you up.

Once I am engrained in you, I am hard to give up. Once you know Me, you want to stay with Me, and it is a fact of life that I am always with you, and you can only stay with Me. How nice to know that. How nice to know that I am your Prize, and that you have won Me.

How nice to know that angels follow you and precede you. Angels are My energy. They are My light, as you are My light. Angels focus. They are clear-seeing and clear-being. They are not many-directioned like you, but one.

You too can clear distraction from your life. You cannot be distracted with Me. I am Attraction, not distraction. Follow, follow your heart to Me. Nothing can fill your heart and your life like I can. I give you a dollop more. I give you a Heaven's worth more. I give you all your gifts plus eternity. I do not give you dribs and drabs. I give you Everything.

You started out with Everything, but you thought you were not worth much.

Gain the habit of knowing your worth. Do not shirk from your value. Uphold it.

What if you did indeed think of yourself as My worthy child? Frowns would melt. Ease would appear. When you consider yourself My child of worth, your ego disappears. Why would you have it when you can have Me? Elbow out your ego with My love. Ego makes you less, not more. Ego rides you like a horse, wanting to win the gate. Ego puts blinders on you so you see what ego wants you to see. Ego uses you, and soon or late it deflates you.

I am the opposite of ego. I am Greatness. And I tell you in every way I know that you too are My Greatness. Follow your Greatness. Develop awareness of it. You have already won the race. There is no race. The race is over. Accept your winnings.

The applause continues. I applaud you.

I urge you on to greater fields. Leave the fence post. Leave the corral. Come run free with Me.

No boundaries exist for you and Me.

You imagine boundaries.

But you are powerful.

And you can go anywhere you want.

You are not bound to the world.

You move in it.

You walk on earth, but you are not stuck in it.

Your feet touch the earth, but you reign in Heaven, because I guide your heart. I press it to Me. I massage your heart with My love.

Your heart needs great healing.

And everyone else's does too.

Be a healer of hearts on earth.

I appoint you a healer of hearts.

Heal other hearts by healing your own.

Let your heart free in leaps and bounds.

You will have occasion today to open your heart.

Whomever you open your heart to, you open it to Me.

Be far-seeing.

See the Greatness of My love on earth.

Scatter My love there.

And pick up My love there while you are at it.

The fullness of the sun is glory. Certain crescendos of music are glory. Certain faces sing glory to you. Certain paintings. What you feel when creation speaks to you is the glory of creation itself.

The word "glory" has come to be associated with fame, but true glory has nothing to do with fame. Fame is very much of the world, and glory is when you go beyond the world.

In those moments when a sunrise steals your heart, or music captures your soul, or a child looks up at you with such trust that your heart is melted, or a magnificent Human being says something that makes you know there is wonderful God and that He is your benefactor, that you are His glory on earth, that you are on the threshold of something glorious — at those moments of pure art of life, you are in the moment.

For a moment, you have stepped out of time and space. It was right there, immediate, that moment. There was nothing but itself. For a fraction of a second, you knew eternity and you knew Heaven. You jumped to Heaven. You were teleported. You teleported yourself.

In that instant, you held Heaven in your hand. It took no time at all. Nothing had to happen but your awareness. Heaven was always in your hand. It is ever there, only you had to notice. Something in the universe sparked your knowing, and you saw where you were.

It is hard to continue on without that spark of knowing. And you want more of it. How you want more!

You cannot force your entry here. Heaven rises to your awareness on its own. It will come as if on its own, but you can be ready for it. You can have it in mind. You can look for signs of it. You have spent much of yourself looking for disaster. Now you are looking for what you desire and which desires you.

You become a patient explorer of the universe. You have no deadline. You have no time limit. Of course, when you enter into timelessness, you do not have a watch of minutes or hours or a calendar of days, weeks, months, or years, not even eons, because in infinity, eons do not exist any more than minutes. In timelessness, you sail the high seas in a sail-less ship on waveless space. Nothing exists but glory. There is no non-glory.

It is not that you have to glom on to glory. You happen to be it. You are already it. You are so immersed in it, you don't see it.

It is like this: You don't have to know you have red hair in order to be a red-head. You can be color-blind, but that does not change the color.

That is the whole point. You are glory. You are not glory-less. You have been so unaware. So disbelieving. You have believed insults much more easily than Truth. You really pay attention to affronts. In truth, glory is affrontless. And you are glory. You are My glory. Believe you are My creation. You are not your own creation. You have, however, believed in your own fabrications.

There is nothing to make of you but what you are. The truth of you cannot be improved upon. The untruth woven around you can be torn off. You must tear it off.

Arise to your full stature. Acknowledge the wonderment of creation and that you are a part of it. Not a little part but an instrumental part. You are not a kink in creation. You are its summit. It is all contained within you.

Begin your ascent. Rise in the elevator of your knowingness. You are going to the top. No longer do you get off at ground floors. No longer are you lost. You know exactly where you are going, and you know exactly where you are from, and you know exactly that there is no height to which you cannot rise. You are a supreme being. You are worthy to be My child, and you cannot escape it. Not one of you. Accept your worth now. Honor Me with acceptance of your worth.

Heavenletter #272 Published on: July 28, 2001

You have made anchors in your life. Certain people and traditions and organizations are your anchors. Yes, they anchor you to earth. But you do not need anchors.

If you will, you can think of Me as an anchor, but that is a contradiction because anchors don't lift you to Heaven. Better to think of Me as a Lifter of Anchors.

Remember, it is not your love for another that is an anchor. Love is a freer. Attachment is an anchor. It is an anchor you make up. An anchor is something or someone you grab, push into the earth, and say it holds you there!

Instead, make yourself the anchor, and anchor yourself in My heart.

You look for stability.

Stability is not found on Earth. Earth is rocky. The physical is not stable, yet you look for your stability there. You think the physical is creditable, and that the essence of life may not be.

No wonder your world is topsy-turvy — your thinking is!

You do not want your world to shift under you, but what does the Earth world do but shift? That is its function. You only imagine that it holds you up.

We could say, nearer to the truth, that a kind of magnetism holds you up. Independent of what goes on around you, you are held up. The Earth could fall, and you would not. The sky could fall, but not on you. You could be a reeling body flung to the outermost sky, and you would only rise to Me.

You fear to be alone, when aloneness is an impossibility. There is very little that I call impossible, but for you to be alone is impossible. It is not in the realm of possibility for you to be without Me. That you can be unaware of My presence — I am well aware of that.

All the things you depend on are like superstitions. They are made-up things that you like to believe in. Believing in them means that you think they give you good luck.

Here is the secret: everything gives you good luck. Everything that comes your way is neutral.

The things and events that you consider unfortunate assail you only in your mind. They have nothing to do with you except as you interpret. You have not been neutral to them. They don't pick on you. You pick on them.

Neutrality does not require anchors.

When you are neutral, you are not blown out of the sky. When you are neutral, you do not boomerang from incident to incident or person to person. When you are neutral, you know your connection to Me, and you are strengthened by your knowledge of Our connection. You are strengthened in any case, but when you do not know your strength, you are weakened.

You think you need anchors because you do not know how strong you are. You do not know how strong I am. You do not even have belief in strength. You have belief in dependency and attachment.

When there is flow, there is no need for something else.

Cloth is woven. The threads are woven. They connect. No seams are needed until something has been cut. To put two pieces back together requires seams.

But you, who are My cloth, cannot be cut, so then why would you require seams?

You think you are separated, cut off, weak. But those are only your thoughts, and now you will get over them, and you will know that We are not separate, that you are not cut off from your Creator, and you are not weak, not at all, but that you are strong. Accept your strength. Stop believing in weakness.

Weakness is an illusion you have bought. You do not need to buy strength — it is already yours. You don't really have to believe in your strength. Your strength is your strength. You only have to believe in it so that you will use it and not run away from it.

I have given you My strength. It is My endowment to you. Please accept.

What can be the matter in a universe I created? Who can explain it? What can the matter be in a creation so magnificent, so rife, so vast?

It only appears that the creation is diverse. Attention on the flow of light is diverted. It is forsaken. All eyes are on the screen, and the projection becomes paramount and the light overlooked.

Between the camera and the screen there can be interference. The moving camera takes one picture, and from one moment to another it looks like it has become another. The interim is viewed. The evidence of the light is viewed, and the light overlooked.

And yet, the picture is all play with light. The movie would not exist without light. And even the altered alternate version, as revealed on the screen, is made of light. Black and white, Technicolor, no matter, the camera takes a picture, and the picture is noticed more than the light from which it flows.

There is a flow of attention to the screen. There is projection. And you enter the screen. You are up on the screen. And you walk around in the moving picture. And sometimes you forget what you are doing up on the screen. And you forget that you are more than the figure that walks across the screen.

The value of forgetting is that you can remember. The forgetting awakens you to something missing from your projection. Forgetting leads your eyes to look further. You wonder what you are doing there, and then you start to look further. From wander comes wonder, and soon enough you look up at the bright light, and an "Ahhh" of joy comes from your throat because you begin to see.

There is more to life than the projection of it.

You see matter on the screen, and something is amiss because you are more than matter. If you were matter alone, you would not feel something lacking. You would be satisfied. But you are more than matter, so you feel incomplete merely outlined on the screen.

You can still be in the picture and know the more that you are. You can be in the picture and reveal more of the more that you are. The figure on the screen can think and feel and move and embody the light from which it comes. As a matter of fact, those in the movie can light the screen.

Each person on the screen takes his own picture of it. There is no consensus really, yet the reviews are considered holy, and deference is given to them. The reviews are what you call the state of the world. The world in review.

The preview is closer to the real view. What you think can be can be. The movie does not have to be stuck. If it is one way, it can be another.

You have hope for one reason, and that is to fulfill it. Hope is little. Faith is greater. But hope lets you know that something is empty, and when you know something is empty, you can start to fill it. You can start to look around. When your pocket is full, you don't look for something to put in it.

The screen is life. The pocket is life. You are life itself. And you are the filler of it. You are the fulfiller of it. You fulfill life by knowing you live it. It is not a race to see who can get through it the fastest or with the least experience of it. There is an infinite reel of life. It is ongoing. You might as well enjoy it. Don't rewind. Don't press forward. Press play. And remember the Producer Who makes it all possible, and then you remember what you are doing up there on the screen of life.

Call it what you will, eternity is this moment. When you feel My presence, then you know you are in eternity and that this ever-present eternity is Who you are. It is you. Eternity is a deep subject for you, but when you are in the present, you rise to the top of the pool where everything is visible. Your eye encompasses everything, and yet, there is nothing to see. What else is there but this Consciousness that We share? But We are One, not two, so how is it possible We share?

You are far from alone, yet you are all that there is. In the fullness of Oneness, loneliness is unknown. Only Oneness knows Itself. That is how you are the Viewer and the Viewed.

Within you lies the universe. It bubbles up from your throat. You are the bubbler of the universe. It is your own hand you see before you, yet the hand you see is transparent, so what have you seen?

Truth is revealed in the eternalness of your heart. There is no difference between within and without. There is neither. There is simply existence entranced with itself. The same way you braid hair, life turns itself this way and that, and the temporary construction called braid is only a twist of hair. Braid does not exist on its own. It is not separate. It is not anything at all but a momentary twist of hair. But hair is hair, and it always returns to itself. Hair is braid only for a little while, but it is always hair.

You are here to find out Who you are. Little by little, by drips and drabs, you begin to assimilate the magnificence of being that you are. You are nothing else. All the things you thought you were, all the adjectives, all the nouns that you have applied and believed in, they are nonexistent. They have nothing to do with you, the Truth of you. They all, all are false beliefs. You are none of those. They are just names given to you, like nicknames, but nicknames are affixed to you. They are not internal to you, nor are they eternal. They are nothing at all.

You rifle through drawers of your life to find out Who you are. You know you are here some place. You open and close drawers, looking for yourself, or for even a clue. And you keep getting warmer, and yet you have not yet quite found yourself.

You may give lip service to Who you are, but lip service is no service at all.

You notice that you empty your heart and you fill it again. Your heart is reduced and then it is enlivened. The time will come when you are not concerned with emptiness or fullness of your own heart because you will have left the importance of individuality aside.

When you were a child, you spake as a child. And now that you are finding new dimensions of yourself, and filling them with love, you are heralded into a newer and greater realm of significance and magnificence.

In a way you are glad that there is always more, but in a way, you wish you could have completeness right now and there not be any more. You want all, and you want it right now. Yet I am saying that you are complete, right in eternity, you are complete, and yet there is still more of you to come.

Deeper and deeper you dive into the center of the universe and pull out more magnificence. As you rise up to the glistening surface, you are light splashing light, and more light, until everything and everyone is immersed in light, and only light is known.

Jesus Was Born, Christ Was Risen

Beloveds, I call you to Me. You may feel My call as a restlessness, for you may not know from where your urgings come. It is I calling you, which is the same as to say: I am yourself calling to Me. How interchangeable We are! What a combination of Unity We are! When did We ever seem to grow apart?

How much of life comes down to mathematics! You have not yet mastered the concept of One. You are busy counting and forget what counts and Who the Counter and Counted are. Soon you will stop counting and you will fathom what Oneness is. You will become immersed in it and not care what it is called. Does it matter overmuch the common name of the river you swim in when you are swimming in it?

It is like the bottled water you drink. The water comes in bottles of varied styles with varied names. But when you are thirsty and you drink the water, how much does it matter to you the name written on the bottle? Water is water, and water quenches your thirst.

And you are One with Me and all of eternity and everyone and everything in it.

This is a hard concept for you to absorb but it is where you live. You just don't know that's where you live. You think that you live in a world peopled with others distant from you. You think earth is other than you. You think just about everything is other than you. You think there is you and there is everything else outside you. You think you have a few possessions that belong to you. You call them your own. You call your family your own. You do not yet know that you own nothing, and yet the whole universe is yours.

There is no outside you, so there is nothing out there to own. You are consciousness in a body, and you have identified with the body rather than with the consciousness which dwells there. Much credence is given to the importance of the body and little to the consciousness that leaps across the universe. You are well-versed in physical matters and less conscious of the Consciousness which is yours and Mine.

It is like you think a watch is a dial with a strap that encloses your wrist, as if the clicking of the timepiece comes from the hands that move around on the face of it, as if there is not an inner mechanism independent of what you see. You forget that there is a master-mover of the dial, hidden beneath, unseen but vital and operative in what you do see. You just aren't paying attention to the inner workings of the watch. You get caught in the ticking of the watch and the time it flashes. You are cognizant of nonexistent time and forgetful of what does exist.

So what is it that exists? Oneness exists. Addition, subtraction, division, multiplication do not exist. They are mere exercises. They fool around with Oneness when all the while there is not but Oneness in the whole creation. The whole creation is Oneness. Oneness is your name.

And what is Oneness but love? Love cannot be separated from Oneness, even though you have fooled yourself that love is diverse and is as if separated from itself. Love comes from inside you. You are naught but love. You are love itself. Oneness and love are you.

The name of the river you swim in is the Oneness of Love. And you are the river and all it contains. You are the river.