Oh rdgr, uhh tiggs, uh rdgr, uhh tiggs, your various personas are confusing. And you wrote "Iwannabigmac", I personally hate McDonald's and have not eaten one since I was 9 years old and violently threw up all night long and that was a looong time ago, just the smell of their fries makes me feel nauseated, ugh! Now I would like a Wendy's Chicken sandwich those are good! And I like BK's cheesburgers double ones, hmm is your mouth watering baby??? But eww to McDonald's, you'll never see me eating any of their food.
And honey I NEVER asked for opinions on my being with a married man, I asked if anyone ever almost won the big jackpot lottery and was off by a couple numbers and if they felt maybe they did something sinful or wrong that caused them to lose. You, nor anyone I know is God so why would I care about your opinion on what I did, you are not my spititual judge. I have asked God to forgive me and I hope He has. And anyhow DUH I wrote I felt guilty being with him, but I praise myself for resisting climbing into bed with him, and I have No doubt those would had been some intensely hot passionate times, you can tell so much by the way a man kisses and hugs you. But see you know nothing, that guy pursued me for years, there were many times he asked me to go to his home ( while his wife was away on business trips, he said we could just cuddle in his bed, I always said NO!) I NEVER went to his home, I NEVER had outright sex with him. I NEVER ever called him, not his home, nor cell phone. I did not get together with him many times that he asked me to meet him. He would tell me repeatedly he was obsessed with me ( that may not flatter you, but that was very flattering to me especially since I never acted as into him as he did to me, though I was definitely attracted to him and he would tell me if he saw a car that looked like mine he would follow it, he even went into a bar one time because he saw a car like mine parked outside, an aside here I never go to bars, unless on a date, and I sure would not personally drive to one, I am 100% against drinking and driving, not even a sip of liquor or wine. Now I could tell you sexy things, the way his body reacted when we were standing talking on the beach one time, talking not even about sex yet for some reason I was incredibly turned on and he kept dipping his foot into the water and finally came right up to my face and told me he was extremely turned on and turned sideways so I could see. Instances like that are not everyday occurances and sorry it was extremely exciting, but I never ever went further than kissing and hugging which I feel proud of. And he always acted like I was so beautiful and desirable, it was a huge ego trip for me, I loved that attention. I have gotten positive attention from men, but never to that degree, so yes it was very difficult to resist his charming ways and good looks and intelligence, and I feel bad I was with him, but his wife must know he cheats so why she stays, who knows.
And you know you come off as some bitter, uptight, judgmental person. And go ahead and think I'm a guy, who cares, but that speaks volumes about you, either all the guys you know are as feminine as me and go online pretending they are the opposite sex ( hey perhaps you do that), or maybe you do not know any sexually open women, just uptight prudes who think sex is dirty and nasty, so you cannot believe women who think like I do exist, or you think the ones who do you think and speak like me are whores, sluts, bimbos, etc, either way it's pretty sad! I hope this response was toooooo long!!! Pfffffffffffft to you! I widh they had a mooning smiley it would be perfect here.